MMX | MMXI

MMX is a roman figure

2010 of course . . .

this will be my last post for this year

as usual MMX past so fast

since january i started working as telemarketer

then i got my a-level result

almost march i resigned

from march to may i had a super long holiday

made many trips with family and friends as well

enroll in utar in june

had sem 1 till september

then holiday again before starting sem 2 in october

exam done in december

and i'm having holiday again till mid-january next year . . .

that's how my MMX going on

all about trips and studies

on MMXI or 2011

first thing i'll be waiting for is result of course

nervous nervous nervous

have confident though XD

i have a new mission in MMXI

will do everything to make it happen . . .

happy new year everyone

have a great one !!!

牵

我有能力牵人家的手吗

能牵得久吗

能握得稳吗

别人可以很放心的相信我

但我还未完全信任别人

始终是有保留

没试过

不知道会有什么后果

很多疑问都没去解答

看一步走一步行吗

需要有经验吗

一次过能一起走到老吗

若不成功

还可以是熟人吗

情人

好虚幻

好荒谬

将来我预测不到

只希望能和对的人过

the short semester

if you think that my blog is dying . . .

nope, it would not die . . .

not until something big happened

maybe like end of the world in 2012

finally i have mood and plenty of free time to write some memorable things happened weeks ago. now i am having semester break, class starts on 17th january. this short semester really feels short, a few weeks only and then final exam is done, just like that.

assignments start on week 3, earliest need to be done is on week 5, and then few others in week 6 & 7. one of the most interesting thing would be the video presentation. it took us around 2-3 days to shoot and 34 hours of editing, became a 19.5 minutes video clip, behind the scenes are very very entertaining and funny. i gain a lot of skills in editing the video where most of the time it crashed and crashed, most of the time i have to re-do a lot, adding music, subtitles and credits as well. although it did not went like how we imagine it, it still a represent a great work from us.

in professional ethics and manners class, i was chosen to be one of the group leader, leader is never my stuff but i like to try it. it turned out a little weird to me cause i really does not know what should i do or what i should not do. as class goes on, my group mates kept on changing till week 3 only became stable and we can start our assignment and presentation. assignment was quite fine for the first one, then comes the second one with the title ''psychologist ethics'', the moment i got this, i have a deep deep feel that we gonna screw this badly, because this is also our presentation topic. on week 7 we present it and it does not goes into favour of lecturer, we managed to change something in the report and i hope it can saves some marks. about the presentation, i learnt some new tricks by own observations, i always see the presenter like moving their legs one step to left right front or back. what i did is to freeze my leg and i did it, good improvement by the way as i don't speak at super-fast-speed.

in week 5, 3 of my friends and i participate something call ''night race varsity''. it's basically a race by guessing clue to a location or a person or game, when you got the next clue then find it and so on until you have 17 pieces. behind the pieces are actually clue to a mini puzzle, anyone managed to guess it will win it. we didn't think too much at first and then we went fully into the game and had as many fun as it can be. we run, guess, observe, play, solve mind-tricking-games, and guess what, we end up 3rd place from 17 groups of people. we're just 30 seconds behind the 2nd place, that's our regret. the prize is a hamper with snacks and biscuits. after the race, all the winners include us distribute the prize to all others. that was a good move considering that we gonna have some hard time in deciding what to be taken by who . . . overall it's tiring but was nice as it held in the night in utar.

oh ya, talk about the trips in this short semester. i went to genting highlands with house mates. went up there a lot of time but this time is quite a different one. just pure relax, no playing any games, in fact 2 days 1 night can't really do much. we have a big room, superior deluxe of first world, that alone cost us rm60 a night. just like always, cool air cools the mind . . .

skyline above highlands hotel

another mini-trip was i-city of shah alam. we went using a near 20 years old proton saga. the engines feel good and quite stable. using that kind of old car driving 40km to and fro was a concerned, it was crazy enough to think and did it. i city has a lot of addition since last january. people still flood around it, makes me think of people always attracted to lights . . .

i-city

the ''superb'' car

one of my dream was achieve as well, going to the klims 2010, kl international motor show, rm20 per person, yet many people went for it, it was quite grant, bigger than i imagine, walk for 4 hours inside ptwc. good to see proton and perodua have their concepts car. still, i like honda and toyota, and the rising favourite would be hyundai . . .

my favourite car right now

talk about exam week, suppose the first day of my exam turn out to be the last day of it, yeah great. the pendidikan moral falls in study week that's why. the moral exam was good, it's mcq and kinda hard . . . the last day exam was structural analysis, it kill me good that day. we suppose to do 4 questions in 2 hours, but after 1.5 hours, i managed to did 2 questions. at the end, i done maybe a little more than 60% . . . and it's doesn't look good. hope i pass all of course . . .

next semester gonna be busy like hell i guess. 6 subjects, 4 full of calculation, with one that need full memorization and the other one is english language. i might take muet, too . . . and i have a new mission . . . to participate more, clubs or activities, anything . . . leave no regret . . .

last thing, new additions to my gadgets list.

sonic gear earpump2

red colour, rm59

i bought this around august's pc fair, forgot to mention it that time . . . this is quite a great piece of sound. a little expensive i know, i really like it . . .

latest thing would be western digital elements external hard disk drive

2.5" with 500gb, usb 2.0, rm 169

in reality it has 465gb, divide it up, it cost me 36.3sen per gb of space, worth it? i think yes if you compare to a dvd or usb flash drive.

wow, never know i can wrote 1000 words plus in a single blog

i did now

great lolx . . .

i'm gonna have a good rest

christmas coming soon . . . XD

20

bye 19 . . .

hi 20 . . .

hate to be old . . .

just like to grow . . .

20 is my favourite 2-digit number

this could be a favourite age

have to thanks yee wei

you just so freaking dare . . .

XD

20 . . . twenty . . . 二十 . . .

for the full 19 years that has passed . . .

*speechless*

. . .

the second semester

back to university feels good though

better than rotting at home doing almost nothing

zero efficiency in terms of contributing to myself or to the world

i only have 3 subjects this time around

structural analysis 1, continuation from statics, hell lot of calculation, what's gone wrong is this subject don't have lab or practical . . . its suppose to have TT

pendidikan moral, moral in malay language, again . . . but this time not as dead as the syllabus in spm . . . just that the way lecturer teaching is hard to adapt TT

professional ethics and manners, sounds professional, and yeah, a lot of professional things gonna pop out ^^

a few days in a week

gonna have just one or two hours class a day

short semester is really free

but assignment sure will stack up

some friends didn't make it through semester one

which forced them to withdraw from the course they taking

one by one . . . i was told and warned that this would happen

once again . . . the motivation is shattered

i still hope that i did not made the wrong choice

a very very long journey to be explored just to prove it
how to be the one that total different from who i am
drastic changes are good? or bad?

what are the things i resist?
what are the things that i afraid?
when are the time to let them all go?
why should i even wanna do it?

i read an article somewhere
it may look like another way to excel in something
in the conventional way we always ask ''what'' then ''how'' then ''why'' . . .
instead we should do it the other way round
first ask ''why'', why are you doing it
then ask ''how'', how you are going to do to support the ''why''
finally ask ''what'', what are the things that made you success

back to my questions, inverted of course
why should i do it?
how i'm gonna do it?
what are the things that need to be changed?

passed !!!

year 1 semester 1

mathematics for engineering 1 - c

statics - b+

fluid mechanics - b-

introduction to building services - b+

survey 1 - b+

sun zi's AOW & business strategies - passed

gpa - two point nine zero three six

lucky me . . . for the maths . . .

lucky me . . . i passed all . . .

lucky me . . . smiling . . .

XD

crazy weekend

right after my exam i had a few days rest, i was in wangsa maju when exam done, went back to klang to rest awhile, 3 days after that went to wangsa maju again . . . then went for a walk in pasar seni in the rain, been in police station, walked around and had lunch at mcd . . . then took the sardine-packed-ktm to serdang from kuala lumpur station . . . ended up in sungai long for 3 days 2 nights . . . to celebrate my first and ex-roomate's burfday . . . the first night dinner was a super-full one, nice curry chicken and black-bean soup, been to his new house and played cards till almost midnight . . . then had a cheese cake . . . second day, branch(breakfast and lunch) was taken in mcd again, a better one in fact . . . then watched a very clean version 'the karate kid', had karaoke in the evening . . . dinner in susan's bistro, i had a lamb shank plus steamed milk, very nice too . . . went back and continue the karaoke, played awhile with a very quiet dog, chat long till midnight, played the new starcraft 2 as well . . . the third day's branch we had a take-away-fried-noodles, while waiting we shopped around a few shops in mahkota cheras . . . oh ya . . . we were playing lots of and lots of piano during those 3 days . . . back to wangsa maju around 5pm. . . a really crazy weekend XD . . . and spent too much TT, but really enjoyed . . .

the cheese cake

'god-like' jiun lim and his 20th-burfday's cake

the steamed milk

the lamb shank with mashed potato and garlic toast

semester 1 done

finally it end

final exam of semester 1

end with a heavy rain

making me half-wet and surround by 25 degree celsius air

there were 5 out of 6 subjects have final exam

right now 2 out of that 5 subjects i have not much confident

maths and fluid mechanic

the worse one would be maths

hoping very hard that i don't repeat any of it

this is just sem 1, there are eleven to go

every sem if something went wrong

this whole course will be devastated . . . sigh

university life ain't easy

lost the motivation to continue and that's it

either i complete the 4 years

or say bye bye to my dream . . .

now semester 1 is done

my break last not more than 20 days

yet i have many plans to do

gonna be vey tired rushing here and there XD

2010 中秋

好好的八月十五 可惜我还在考试

不过还好 八月十六没考 一直到下个拜一

所以今天可以休息

今天和前两天的考试 实在是拿了我好多条命

其实大多数不会难 一有难的却很难

唉 数学试卷做着做着 突然脑海闪了一句civil 工程的梦好难实现啊

考了四科 就有两科可能过不了关

才第一学期而已 还有十一学期

开始有一点后悔 但是不念这科 我没其他选择了

不是不能选 是对其他没太多兴趣

看到小朋友玩蜡烛 点灯笼

唤起童年回忆 好简单的过日子 不用想太多

以前到处找东西来烧 不烧不算过中秋

有多少蜡烛就点多少 没了火才甘愿回家

还有邻居有时煮一些食物 大家坐在马路上 边吃边谈

超开心 超温馨

第十九次中秋 也很简单 做在个地方 说一些废话

看见别人庆祝也不错

回来了 一样的像平常对着电脑 娱乐自己

真无聊

距离熟悉的感觉越来越远了

怀念 . . . 好怀念

外面下着绵绵细雨

听着很有feel的歌

中秋节 就这样的过了 . . .

:)

procrastination

right now, i'm having my first final exam in degree, year 1 semester 1, one subject has done, left 4 to go . . . and it's so freaking hard to continue the momentum of reading, i have studied quite a lot for the first subject, cause it’s the hardest, but now, the second one although not the second hardest, still its full of theory and need maximum memorization and plus a little calculation . . . and what the hell i'm doing everyday? watch series, gaming ==" of course everyday i read little, even that little thing took me so long to memorize, i bet on that day of exam, my mind just blank . . . holy shit . . . i left 3 days, and after that, 3 days of continuously exam, a combo of 3 subjects, i'm preparing for one, one that not even completed yet . . . ahhhhhh

i hope someone can just slap me, or at least take my laptop away awhile . . . but, i need the notes and past year inside it . . . so when i tend to read using laptop, naturally i will . . . sigh

as we grow older, studying tend to gets procrastinate . . .

it doesn't apply to everyone, at least for me . . .

let's see what happens to me 11 days from now . . .

merdeka @ MOS

finally and surprisingly
i've went for clubbing before my age breach 20s
with a bunch of experienced guys
and yes we went without a girl (a little disappointed lolx)

the name is euphoria ministry of sound (MOS)
near sunway piramid
the place is like a round-shape building
integrated into the side of sunway hotel

from outside it looks like a 2 storey building
infact it has mezzanine floors
the upper floor is the dance floor
and the ground floor is a more relaxing place like a bar

the sound effect at the upper floor definitely superb
absolutely quality sound and absolutely insulated from outside
there's bars at both ground and first floor
the interior feels like total above class

that night was 30th august
merdeka event with free flow
rm100 per entry for guyz and rm80 for galz
start on 93opm end on 3am the next morning

funny thing is we're the first to arrive
bought the tickets and entered right on when they opened
actually it was too early
turns up totally bored during the first hour

since its free flow
the rule is to hold on your cup to refill
if you lost it means gameover lolx
and the damn plastic cup with the name chivas worth rm100

there were five types of drink
chivas, vodka, havana, calrsberg, the last one i forgot
i only drank those four listed
around 6 cups before i threw up

i was chatting until around 1130pm
only that time the crowd became normal
after the mildly countdown by the DJ
the music switched to more 'hitz' from R & B at the beginning

that's the time when people starts heading to dance floor and dance
put your hands up in the air
drink like it's end of the world
dance anyhow you want

frankly speaking from our experienced guys that this night was not a nice night
infact it's below standard
main reason is the crowd mostly are international students or people
local (chinese girls obviously) very limited

but we enjoyed ourselves a lot still
drink drank dance
i was half-concious
yet i remembered how things happened

danced like a lost minded fellow
walked like on moon gravity
talked like a fool
slept like never sleep before after reaching home

heavy alcohols just like taking a person to some level
where you can indeed expresses everything that you like
you talk, you dance, you shout, you act like a freak
simply lost our sense of logic

reached friend's house around 4 something
slept till 1030am and again from 1130am till 2pm
only i then brushed my teeth and bathed
that's the time i fully recovered from half-concious

i think this was an abnormal way to celebrate merdeka
although it seems not much related
and so when's the next night??
probably during x'mas :)

咖啡人生

冷冷的环境　热热的咖啡

一杯难满足　心痒痒

多几杯深怕会上瘾　戒不了

久久一次闻一闻　才珍惜

咖啡喝多了　自然会分辨哪个好哪个不

再多么好的咖啡　也不能天天喝

偶尔来一杯淡淡或无味的

才能维持对好喝的期待

越容易得到的　越不会期待　也不会珍惜

讽刺的是

越得不到的　越会心灰意冷　干脆忘掉

以免心碎

一个人能有多坚强 要凭多少时间来断定呢？

一天？一年？十年？半世纪？

还是他的一生？

我唯一相信是　人总有会失败的时候

会跌会痛会哭　人生才算完整

回忆起来

脆弱的日子　换来更踏实的未来

咖啡　甜中带苦　苦中带香

不想只有苦而没甜

人生　有悲有喜　都带有意义

不想只有悲而没喜

我喜欢较苦的咖啡

苦多于甜

难道人生也必须是这样吗？

若不接受　唯有反抗。。。

wondering . . .

since start of university life

i've been wondering a lot

what it is going to be in there

when i'm in

what it is going to be right now

days and weeks passed by

some answers i managed to answer myself

but then new things starts making me wondering

do i have done enough or should i make more effort

i have thoughts of doing it but lack of something to start off

then again

when will i found the thing to start myself up

something been seriously lacking

i'm no different than others

but yet i want to be different from others

i've been failing in some way

will i continue to fail that way

will the thing that fail me change itself

shall i take the initiative to do something about it

clocks ticking

i kept getting old

and here i am still wondering

one last wonder

will i breakthrough

if i did, lots of thing must change

if things change

what's next

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week 12 already and i'm finally have a break

all tests completed and left some minor assignments

will finish off very soon . . .

and final on 14th sep . . .

formal presentation

since week 6, i've been busying a lot

tests, practical reports, assignments

all seems like packing together like a wave

one by one hit my brain

now is week 9

and more tests and some remaining assignments

i like busy

but don't like rushing

sound so wrong

however one important thing just finished

my very first formal presentation

in a cold lecture hall with 60+ people

we're the 8th group to present

shivering cause damn cold and nervous

it went well somehow

and as usual i speak at super fast speed

not fully knowing what i split out

haix . . .

but, we're satisfied and feel good about it

our first and we did good

wish someone recorded it

while i wont dare to watch it again

a lot of things still can be improved

level up next time XD

mid 2010

another blink of an eye

it's already july . . .

half a year passed again

this time i spent the mid 2010 in university

going classes as usual

study in study room

crack my head to solve maths questions . . .

sound so bored

but it's better than nothing to do seriously

i spent nearly 3 months rotting

currently i'm getting busier and busier

assignments all showed up

mid-term test is coming also

some of the lessons not quite fully understand

nonetheless i still feel i'm new to this life

technically i already adapt to it

still something that got me hanging

telling me that this is a very unreal life

telling me what i'm studying aren't real

maybe i haven't accept it

maybe a little sooner

i had a gathering with 2 groups of people

the first one is my colleagues

having bbq in her place

it's nice to meet them again

i only know them around 7 weeks cause i left earlier

some still continue on

somehow they really good in that job

then i meet some new fellows which are doing the same job

what i feel is perhaps they have a clearer way of what are they doing

a solid feel that makes them have faith to keep on doing it

all have different backgrounds with different concerns

yet everyone continues on with life

time is never a problem

age is never a problem

what matters is that people never stop from learning things

everything we do, working or studying

we learn . . .

the second one is college-mates gatherings

i miss them so much

it's been 6 months that i've haven't met with some of them

we had chats, movies and a dinner

such short meetings

but gives me a total boost in mood

lights and colour up my day somehow

we didnt know each other for too long, not 5 not 10 years

merely 2 years

a simple happiness

at some point in my life

i met some people

they might not be important

but they can bring you a taste of long lost friends

same feel goes to secondary schoolmates

just think about them

it'll make you smile atleast 3 seconds ^^