the second semester

back to university feels good though

better than rotting at home doing almost nothing

zero efficiency in terms of contributing to myself or to the world

i only have 3 subjects this time around

structural analysis 1, continuation from statics, hell lot of calculation, what's gone wrong is this subject don't have lab or practical . . . its suppose to have TT

pendidikan moral, moral in malay language, again . . . but this time not as dead as the syllabus in spm . . . just that the way lecturer teaching is hard to adapt TT

professional ethics and manners, sounds professional, and yeah, a lot of professional things gonna pop out ^^

a few days in a week

gonna have just one or two hours class a day

short semester is really free

but assignment sure will stack up

some friends didn't make it through semester one

which forced them to withdraw from the course they taking

one by one . . . i was told and warned that this would happen

once again . . . the motivation is shattered

i still hope that i did not made the wrong choice

a very very long journey to be explored just to prove it
how to be the one that total different from who i am
drastic changes are good? or bad?

what are the things i resist?
what are the things that i afraid?
when are the time to let them all go?
why should i even wanna do it?

i read an article somewhere
it may look like another way to excel in something
in the conventional way we always ask ''what'' then ''how'' then ''why'' . . .
instead we should do it the other way round
first ask ''why'', why are you doing it
then ask ''how'', how you are going to do to support the ''why''
finally ask ''what'', what are the things that made you success

back to my questions, inverted of course
why should i do it?
how i'm gonna do it?
what are the things that need to be changed?