Sunday, February 20, 2011

非诚勿扰

你见,或者不见我
我就在那里

不悲不喜


你念,或者不念我

情就在那里

不来不去


你爱,或者不爱我

爱就在那里

不增不减


你跟,或者不跟我

我的手就在你手里

不舍不弃


来我的怀里
或者
让我住进你的心里

默然相爱

寂静欢喜


《班扎古鲁白玛的沉默》
作者 | 扎西拉姆多多


这首诗我在看非诚勿扰2时,有个小女生,送别父亲时而念的
非诚勿扰和非诚勿扰2这两部都是很有意义的电影
出自于导演冯小刚著的小说



Tuesday, February 1, 2011

3rd semester

nothing changed
at least not my appeal's result
so i have to accept it that it was a fail
bye bye structural analysis
bye bye too, structural analysis 2
have to wait till short semester to retake
so this semester left only 5 subjects

pengajian malaysia, another boring subject like moral in malay language

english for engineering, not a typical english class, many said it's not easy to pass or score

mathematics 2, seems a little interesting than mathematics 1, still it's a tough one

dynamics, similar to physics in a-level but those formulae seems have ''add-on''s

soil mechanics, after a few lectures and still in the midst of introduction, not sure how it will be, i believe it's more to calculation as well . . .

since i took english this semester, i registered to take MUET too, hope it can help me a little, didn't write a proper essay for a long time . . . oh no . . .
by the way, i can't afford a fail anymore, it's truly a painful one, especially need to retake the whole subject again . . .
university . . . civil engineering . . . damn hard to continue

things always be different
it changes unexpectedly
if i can live for 100 years old
what have i done in one fifth of it?
can i be fully independent?
perhaps not . . .
what else i achieved that's truly memorable?
what i'm capable of?
need another 20 years to prove?
sad . . .

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

fallen

what a sad news . . .
i've fallen
now i truly felt about when getting a fail in an important exam
just merely half a year and this is my first fall
structural analysis down
the other two passed . . .

first thought of that moment when i got it . . .
i'm wondering system wrong?? server problem??
but then repeatedly read again . . . it's still remain ''F''
then, i wonder where it went wrong . . .
i was positive that i can passed, at least merely
and so i will appeal
despite an expensive price of rm100
i must appeal . . .

wait for another 2 weeks
hope something will change
it must change
damn it == xx

Friday, December 31, 2010

MMX | MMXI

MMX is a roman figure
2010 of course . . .
this will be my last post for this year
as usual MMX past so fast

since january i started working as telemarketer
then i got my a-level result
almost march i resigned
from march to may i had a super long holiday
made many trips with family and friends as well
enroll in utar in june
had sem 1 till september
then holiday again before starting sem 2 in october
exam done in december
and i'm having holiday again till mid-january next year . . .
that's how my MMX going on
all about trips and studies

on MMXI or 2011
first thing i'll be waiting for is result of course
nervous nervous nervous
have confident though XD

i have a new mission in MMXI
will do everything to make it happen . . .

happy new year everyone
have a great one !!!

Friday, December 17, 2010

我有能力牵人家的手吗
能牵得久吗
能握得稳吗

别人可以很放心的相信我
但我还未完全信任别人
始终是有保留

没试过
不知道会有什么后果
很多疑问都没去解答

看一步走一步行吗
需要有经验吗
一次过能一起走到老吗

若不成功
还可以是熟人吗

情人
好虚幻
好荒谬

将来我预测不到
只希望能和对的人过

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

the short semester

if you think that my blog is dying . . .
nope, it would not die . . .
not until something big happened
maybe like end of the world in 2012

finally i have mood and plenty of free time to write some memorable things happened weeks ago. now i am having semester break, class starts on 17th january. this short semester really feels short, a few weeks only and then final exam is done, just like that.

assignments start on week 3, earliest need to be done is on week 5, and then few others in week 6 & 7. one of the most interesting thing would be the video presentation. it took us around 2-3 days to shoot and 34 hours of editing, became a 19.5 minutes video clip, behind the scenes are very very entertaining and funny. i gain a lot of skills in editing the video where most of the time it crashed and crashed, most of the time i have to re-do a lot, adding music, subtitles and credits as well. although it did not went like how we imagine it, it still a represent a great work from us.

in professional ethics and manners class, i was chosen to be one of the group leader, leader is never my stuff but i like to try it. it turned out a little weird to me cause i really does not know what should i do or what i should not do. as class goes on, my group mates kept on changing till week 3 only became stable and we can start our assignment and presentation. assignment was quite fine for the first one, then comes the second one with the title ''psychologist ethics'', the moment i got this, i have a deep deep feel that we gonna screw this badly, because this is also our presentation topic. on week 7 we present it and it does not goes into favour of lecturer, we managed to change something in the report and i hope it can saves some marks. about the presentation, i learnt some new tricks by own observations, i always see the presenter like moving their legs one step to left right front or back. what i did is to freeze my leg and i did it, good improvement by the way as i don't speak at super-fast-speed.

in week 5, 3 of my friends and i participate something call ''night race varsity''. it's basically a race by guessing clue to a location or a person or game, when you got the next clue then find it and so on until you have 17 pieces. behind the pieces are actually clue to a mini puzzle, anyone managed to guess it will win it. we didn't think too much at first and then we went fully into the game and had as many fun as it can be. we run, guess, observe, play, solve mind-tricking-games, and guess what, we end up 3rd place from 17 groups of people. we're just 30 seconds behind the 2nd place, that's our regret. the prize is a hamper with snacks and biscuits. after the race, all the winners include us distribute the prize to all others. that was a good move considering that we gonna have some hard time in deciding what to be taken by who . . . overall it's tiring but was nice as it held in the night in utar.

oh ya, talk about the trips in this short semester. i went to genting highlands with house mates. went up there a lot of time but this time is quite a different one. just pure relax, no playing any games, in fact 2 days 1 night can't really do much. we have a big room, superior deluxe of first world, that alone cost us rm60 a night. just like always, cool air cools the mind . . .

skyline above highlands hotel

another mini-trip was i-city of shah alam. we went using a near 20 years old proton saga. the engines feel good and quite stable. using that kind of old car driving 40km to and fro was a concerned, it was crazy enough to think and did it. i city has a lot of addition since last january. people still flood around it, makes me think of people always attracted to lights . . .

i-city

the ''superb'' car

one of my dream was achieve as well, going to the klims 2010, kl international motor show, rm20 per person, yet many people went for it, it was quite grant, bigger than i imagine, walk for 4 hours inside ptwc. good to see proton and perodua have their concepts car. still, i like honda and toyota, and the rising favourite would be hyundai . . .

my favourite car right now

talk about exam week, suppose the first day of my exam turn out to be the last day of it, yeah great. the pendidikan moral falls in study week that's why. the moral exam was good, it's mcq and kinda hard . . . the last day exam was structural analysis, it kill me good that day. we suppose to do 4 questions in 2 hours, but after 1.5 hours, i managed to did 2 questions. at the end, i done maybe a little more than 60% . . . and it's doesn't look good. hope i pass all of course . . .

next semester gonna be busy like hell i guess. 6 subjects, 4 full of calculation, with one that need full memorization and the other one is english language. i might take muet, too . . . and i have a new mission . . . to participate more, clubs or activities, anything . . . leave no regret . . .

last thing, new additions to my gadgets list.
sonic gear earpump2
red colour, rm59
i bought this around august's pc fair, forgot to mention it that time . . . this is quite a great piece of sound. a little expensive i know, i really like it . . .

latest thing would be western digital elements external hard disk drive
2.5" with 500gb, usb 2.0, rm 169
in reality it has 465gb, divide it up, it cost me 36.3sen per gb of space, worth it? i think yes if you compare to a dvd or usb flash drive.


wow, never know i can wrote 1000 words plus in a single blog
i did now
great lolx . . .
i'm gonna have a good rest
christmas coming soon . . . XD

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

20

bye 19 . . .
hi 20 . . .

hate to be old . . .
just like to grow . . .

20 is my favourite 2-digit number
this could be a favourite age

have to thanks yee wei
you just so freaking dare . . .
XD

20 . . . twenty . . . 二十 . . .

for the full 19 years that has passed . . .
*speechless*
. . .

Thursday, October 21, 2010

the second semester

back to university feels good though
better than rotting at home doing almost nothing
zero efficiency in terms of contributing to myself or to the world
i only have 3 subjects this time around

structural analysis 1, continuation from statics, hell lot of calculation, what's gone wrong is this subject don't have lab or practical . . . its suppose to have TT
pendidikan moral, moral in malay language, again . . . but this time not as dead as the syllabus in spm . . . just that the way lecturer teaching is hard to adapt TT
professional ethics and manners, sounds professional, and yeah, a lot of professional things gonna pop out ^^

a few days in a week
gonna have just one or two hours class a day
short semester is really free
but assignment sure will stack up

some friends didn't make it through semester one
which forced them to withdraw from the course they taking
one by one . . . i was told and warned that this would happen
once again . . . the motivation is shattered

i still hope that i did not made the wrong choice
a very very long journey to be explored just to prove it
how to be the one that total different from who i am
drastic changes are good? or bad?

what are the things i resist?
what are the things that i afraid?
when are the time to let them all go?
why should i even wanna do it?

i read an article somewhere
it may look like another way to excel in something
in the conventional way we always ask ''what'' then ''how'' then ''why'' . . .
instead we should do it the other way round
first ask ''why'', why
are you doing it
then ask ''how'', how you are going to do to support the ''why''
finally ask ''what'', what are the things that made you success

back to my questions, inverted of course
why should i do it?
how i'm gonna do it?
what are the things that need to be changed?

Thursday, October 14, 2010

passed !!!

year 1 semester 1
mathematics for engineering 1 - c
statics - b+
fluid mechanics - b-
introduction to building services - b+
survey 1 - b+
sun zi's AOW & business strategies - passed
gpa - two point nine zero three six
lucky me . . . for the maths . . .
lucky me . . . i passed all . . .
lucky me . . . smiling . . .
XD

Monday, October 4, 2010

crazy weekend

right after my exam i had a few days rest, i was in wangsa maju when exam done, went back to klang to rest awhile, 3 days after that went to wangsa maju again . . . then went for a walk in pasar seni in the rain, been in police station, walked around and had lunch at mcd . . . then took the sardine-packed-ktm to serdang from kuala lumpur station . . . ended up in sungai long for 3 days 2 nights . . . to celebrate my first and ex-roomate's burfday . . . the first night dinner was a super-full one, nice curry chicken and black-bean soup, been to his new house and played cards till almost midnight . . . then had a cheese cake . . . second day, branch(breakfast and lunch) was taken in mcd again, a better one in fact . . . then watched a very clean version 'the karate kid', had karaoke in the evening . . . dinner in susan's bistro, i had a lamb shank plus steamed milk, very nice too . . . went back and continue the karaoke, played awhile with a very quiet dog, chat long till midnight, played the new starcraft 2 as well . . . the third day's branch we had a take-away-fried-noodles, while waiting we shopped around a few shops in mahkota cheras . . . oh ya . . . we were playing lots of and lots of piano during those 3 days . . . back to wangsa maju around 5pm. . . a really crazy weekend XD . . . and spent too much TT, but really enjoyed . . .


the cheese cake


'god-like' jiun lim and his 20th-burfday's cake


the steamed milk


the lamb shank with mashed potato and garlic toast