this is it

take a deep breath . . .

smthhhhhhhhhhh~

hhaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

effing nice feel

because i'm done in college life

i've officially finish the cambridge a-level course

and it takes 3 round of celebrations while ending it

one word still ~ cool

being in exam for a month is really not a good feeling

that long life is just so bored

although having class sucks

without that, even sucks . . .

that's what i'm doing now

facebooking, watching anime and series

day pass just like that . . .

same as a aim-less person

anyway . . . i will rest a month plus

then by end of december

i will hunt for jobs . . .

hope will get a job in january

to end the aim-less life

how am i feeling now??

a little lonely i guess

cause the primary social place has ended

seems like i look at computer and tv more than facing humans

it means i talk less

so so so sad

already start to miss college friends

they are so so so lively

every part of them

every single voice of theirs

every little thing they do

every happiness they create

everything of them

i shall remember

words just aren't enough to describe it

probably they are the best classmates i've ever had

thanks to you all SN9E

sigh~~

this is it

another journey ends

a new one shall arise . . .

love | soul

19th

happy birthday to myself . . . lolx

and yes, officially 19th

i end up reading chemistry application

at my last moment of 18th . . .

not really have mood for my 19th birthday

as i have big exam by tomorrow

guess i'm lucky cause not on the same day

but i manage to take some time to write about this

17th november will be the last day of a2 exam

on 12pm, once again take a deep breath

and i'm done

behold . . .

pre-a2

this is it . . .
final mission of pre-u studies
starting on 21st october
end on 17th november

everyone knows every exam is hard
after going through lots of exams
eventually we will get numb
that's what i'm feelling right now

so tired of studying
studying could be derive from student dying
when a student studying, like me
it seems that i'm dying . . .
lolx . . .

on 1200 hour, 17112009
i will be free
atleast for a few months
to all friends involve in a2 as well . . .
all the damn best to you all

nature acts again

in just a week . . .
nature acts violent again . . .
typhoons, earthquakes, tsunamis . . .

this time, comes in pair
typhoon - ketsana and parma
earthquake - padang and samoa
tsunami - from padang and samoa as well

thousands of lives will lost
thousands of them went missing
millions will be homeless

and the aftermath . . .
human race against time to save anyone
every second lives lost
every second tears rolled down cheeks
every moment there is just sorrow . . .

sorry for those who lost their love's one

no one can stop
no one can predict
what's left just piles and piles of remains
and corpses . . .

sad sad situation . . .
soon . . . no cursing, no offence
malaysia will under attack again . . .
it just a matter of time
when it comes
brace yourself and survive through it
the world indeed is cruel . . .
you cried, too
the first moment you came to this wold

relax!?

what i've done right after trial exam??
3 weeks of non-stop playing and enjoying everywhere
and not even touching any books or homework . . .
and skip class all the while . . .zz

i skip more than half of the classes of a week
basically teachers done teaching already
only discuss about past year papers
for a "lazer"(a lazy people) like me
of course has not do any of that
i only attend practicals and some of the tutorials
where i spent my time??
CC . . . cinema . . . a trip and my computer as well

i play command and conquer red alert 3 and general
not up to addict yet . . . but soon it will right after exam . . .
play in home, in hostel, in CC also . . .
after playing each time
felt like nothing happen though
lolx . . . only enjoy while playing
felt like has not done anything yet
probably the games already can't fulfill my desire??
or is it the game lame??
may be i'm too old for those
anyway, it is better than facebook games(i have to mention that . . . lolx)

for that 3 weeks. . . i watch 4 movies too
final destination 4, where got ghost, orphan and g-force
3 horrors and 1 animation
best one is orphan, and i watch alone
sit at the last row of last cinema room in klcc, no. 12 . . .seat no. K8
really suspense and just so nice watching it
good work from the people making it

the other like FD4 really not that nice, and the ending just like that zz
where got ghost . . . yup, its funny
and some part of the movie did make me scare out of it
the last one, g-force . . . i just too old for that lolx
it is high-tech, and some part funny also . . .
but more suitable for children i guess
cause most of the people watching just at teen ages only

i went to bukit gambang resort city in hari raya
it is in gambang, pahang, around 20-30 km from west of kuantan
a very new tourist attraction, more to local attraction
opened about a few months ago . . .
got 6 blocks of apartments, only 4 are completed
not much activities . . . most of the time just free leisure
a 3 minutes walk to the other side is the bukit gambang water-park
quite a small one if compare to sunway lagoon
most of the park is for family
even the loopy ride using raft not that exiciting
there is one ride not yet open . . . sad
staying there quite relax, the air in the morning really fresh
and a nice swimming pool . . .

and another usual gathering as well
with my form 5 classmates . . .
karaoke and a movie
happy to see them . . .
last few day went to a friend house in sungai long, kajang
went for the moon-cake festival night held by the committees of the housing area
chit-chatting all the way
really have fun and enjoy . . . ^^

totally forgetting that i have a big exam in just 4 weeks . . .
trial exam's result . . .sigh, chem n phy passed, but not maths and bio, TT
hmm . . . time to keep head down and finish the last and big mission of this year . . .
last quarter of 2009 is coming
so damn fast . . .

090909

100 years once - 090909
only exist once in a lifetime for me
unless i can live for more than 120+ years old
but i will be very old by then
so it's better cherish it now . . .
everyday is the same
not just 090909
080808 and101010 . . .
all just once in a lifetime
no turning back
as long as i am conscious and normal
i will do something special . . .
for me 090909 it's now or never
and i just finished exam by yesterday
so here i am blogging about this now
and what i'm going to do is relax myself
after going through the trial exam
3 weeks of study
pain but gain
think deeply
seems that pain is more than gain
i pay this much pain
but i don't get back as much gain
anyway some people do get more than they pay
we born to study for 20 years
then need to work for 40 years
so the gain is after 60 years??
because that's the time of retire
but that doesn't mean we are fully stay out of pain
if we have family
we have to worry about our children and our grandchildren
if we don't
we have to worry how are we going to pass our time
if we don't have to worry those
one thing left
health will deteriorates
suffer a long way before our last breath
so??
assumption is pain more than gain
think from another angle
it's the human race that gain
we born to overwrite of what ancestors have done wrong
we born to continue and improve of what ancestors have done right
in the end
we are sacrificing for our next generation
is that really noble??
someone born to destroy
someone born to save them for being destroyed
for what human race gains
the nature and earth pay the price
and the rate is increasing everyday
how many more 090909s can we have??
maybe we celebrate on mars in future??
i don't think it will goes well
by then we will have a new and longer calender
687 days a year
for everyday we have
make it fully meaningful
and don't forget to save earth

*crazy thoughts (never meant to offence anyone)*

2009-8-22

a normal day
but me
ain't that normal
just a bit moody

what??
moody
why??
can't define . . .
it's just too much
when??
long time ago
could be started a few months ago
where??
everywhere
how??
i can't stop it
as i'm aging

my 18's gonna end
this is not good
ishhh...

d-day

august 10th, monday . . .
important day
the day that AS result came out
it is released at 7am in malaysia
have to check via online
i am not the first one to check . . .
i wait. . . . and wait . . . till 9am
brace myself and click the website
sign in . . .

surprise yes . . .
A for maths
A for physics
B for biology
C for chemistry
E for general paper (something like english paper)

i am happy for the moment because i got 2As
but the C make me worry a little
after a few days
i make up my mind
i will not retake it . . .

so . . .
A2 is my only last shot . . .
let's see if i can keep up
or else
i could stay for another semester
which means
study with junior . . .
somehow it feel sucks . . .

whatever it is
i feel happy at the moment . . .
COOL MAN ~~

空虚

来到a-level读书已经一年多了
开始时
刚刚离开服务营的我
已是属于‘插班生’了
因为迟了半个月才进班
还好一切都可追上

一年的时间
不算短也不算长
在拉曼学院上课
一年而已
相比在五年的中学
变的 多的很

我的班sn9e
无可否认的
热情得不得了
也算是在这一批a-level中
非常吵的一班

四百天过了
热情不变
变的是朋友与朋友之间的信任
唉。。。

当初第一学期考试后
一大班人浩浩荡荡一起看电影
最高记录是二十多人一起去
闹出了许多笑话
非常难忘
那时是第一学期

来到了第二学期
事情开始恶化了
不知为何大家的感情
走了样
表面上很多话题谈
私底下却是很不满

也许大家都认为自己没做错
我也不例外
知道自己有错
残的是不懂为何错
每个人都从不同的角度看待事故
自然地就会有不同的感想
相信大家都有同感

有时候呢
做了一些事
对别人而言 是没什么
无论如何
很难令其他人满意
在另个角落的他(他们)
可能已被伤害
结果 出事了

平均 十九岁
算是进入成熟阶段
当然早熟的
说话 行动 气质
明显的 高档次一些

当刚成熟的遇到已成熟的
一不小心
裂痕就产生
原因有很多
只有自己晓得

年龄虽相差不大
思想却相差不小
想修补 但有心无力
就算补了 心中还有刺
总不能回到刚认识时的滋味

幸好知己依然有
若不是
会很难受
很难继续过日子
往往事实是残酷的

就这样 带着遗憾
来到第三学期。。。

一大班人
只剩下两三只猫消磨时光
心情越堕落

大考完了
应聚在一起庆祝
我们的班刚好相反
曲终人散
大多数人都回了
我呢 总得找些娱乐
不然 人活着是干嘛地

最近心情真的很空虚
上课本来很开心
可是总觉得有事放不下
当然包括其他的
不知为何要烦这些琐碎的事
一定要找人谈谈

十八岁
好残
发誓 要走出这空虚


*五六百字， 好久没写了
越写越悲。。。 搞什么啦。。。*

1st anniversary

my handphone . . . sony erricson k660i has been one year since i used it . . . i bought the phone at the same day last year, and still look nice . . . anyway, it is my second handphone, the first one is nokia 8310 which i'd used for 3.5 years . . . both phones also a great phone in it's class.