friends . . .

i'm... not a person who has a lot of friends, but i'm a person who really need to depends on friends if i wanna continue to survive. i need to stay with them, to laugh together, to cry together, to do almost same thing everyday, cause only that i will feel what i'm doing has a purpose. . . if i have 1 million bucks, i would use the money to 'buy' entertainment, to eat luxury stuffs, to travel to the whole world, but... if i do it alone when i have no friend at all, i won't get any bit of fun from it. . .

for me, give me some time and i can get to know a new friend very fast, depends on the person's personality. anyway, to get a true and always-by-your-side friend, it can take a much longer time. . . as now, to be exact, i only got 3 or 4 true friends, i put a 'or' because one of them actually is my old friend, we used to be a lot of things to tell each other, but now we only keep in contact through msn, not frequently, cause we both study in different places. . . true friends are hard to get, and to maintain them, is much harder. . .

when i involve in different communities, i will always try to get friends where we can talk a lot of things. . . from primary school, secondary school, college to national service to when i was a waiter in a restaurant, without them, my life would be damn lonely. . . some people take their best friends as motivators or friendly enemies, they want to be good as their are, to compete with them. emm, while i take them as a place to let out my feelings, thoughts and emotions. my little advice, if you feel very stressed or emo, get a friend and let him or her be the listener, tell the story, and after that, you will get better . . .

to some of my friends as well: if i long time didn't keep in touch with you, it doesn't mean that i already forget about you, just that. . . whatever it is, you, helped to make my life better, you, coloured my life with laughter and happiness, and . . . (ohhh, very gross, lolx)