march 13th 2009, yes, another 5s4 gathering, though not many attend it, as usual, only those that keep on supporting did come, one of them is me. . . our form 4 & 5 form teacher, mr lim, surprisingly came, too.
this time is at a mamak beside berkeley corner restaurant. i arrive at a little over 8pm, by driving while taking 2 friends, and i order fried maggi right away cause i'm just very hungry that day. . .
that night as usual also, we chat through a lot of things, but most of the topic we talking about are other friends' gossip, lolx, (guess this can't get out of our mind for now). emm, we asking whether one of us has a boy or girlfriend, and one of my friends already starts a relationship not long ago, also in march, lots of questions being asked to keep the gossip issues on. anyway, congrats to her as well to be in a relationship. . . tyw, grow up le yeah...lolx
then when another friend come, as we've been told(gossip told by another friend as well) that he already starts(relationship) long time ago, we keep on and on and on pursue him for answers . . . but, he stand still and never confess about it. . . anyhow, we all know, is true. . . (sorry, my friend, i'm one of the pursuer to force you to tell the truth, no matter what, we are friends okay?? please don't mind, please...)
hmm, back to my own, really makes me think deep now, a relationship, easy to start? or is it the time has yet to come? should i make a try? at what cost will it be? does she knows what i'm thinking? (please don't ask who is "she", sensitive issue). . .
love | soul
i'm... not a person who has a lot of friends, but i'm a person who really need to depends on friends if i wanna continue to survive. i need to stay with them, to laugh together, to cry together, to do almost same thing everyday, cause only that i will feel what i'm doing has a purpose. . . if i have 1 million bucks, i would use the money to 'buy' entertainment, to eat luxury stuffs, to travel to the whole world, but... if i do it alone when i have no friend at all, i won't get any bit of fun from it. . .
for me, give me some time and i can get to know a new friend very fast, depends on the person's personality. anyway, to get a true and always-by-your-side friend, it can take a much longer time. . . as now, to be exact, i only got 3 or 4 true friends, i put a 'or' because one of them actually is my old friend, we used to be a lot of things to tell each other, but now we only keep in contact through msn, not frequently, cause we both study in different places. . . true friends are hard to get, and to maintain them, is much harder. . .when i involve in different communities, i will always try to get friends where we can talk a lot of things. . . from primary school, secondary school, college to national service to when i was a waiter in a restaurant, without them, my life would be damn lonely. . . some people take their best friends as motivators or friendly enemies, they want to be good as their are, to compete with them. emm, while i take them as a place to let out my feelings, thoughts and emotions. my little advice, if you feel very stressed or emo, get a friend and let him or her be the listener, tell the story, and after that, you will get better . . .to some of my friends as well: if i long time didn't keep in touch with you, it doesn't mean that i already forget about you, just that. . . whatever it is, you, helped to make my life better, you, coloured my life with laughter and happiness, and . . . (ohhh, very gross, lolx)
