Wednesday, November 10, 2010

20

bye 19 . . .
hi 20 . . .

hate to be old . . .
just like to grow . . .

20 is my favourite 2-digit number
this could be a favourite age

have to thanks yee wei
you just so freaking dare . . .
XD

20 . . . twenty . . . 二十 . . .

for the full 19 years that has passed . . .
*speechless*
. . .

Thursday, October 21, 2010

the second semester

back to university feels good though
better than rotting at home doing almost nothing
zero efficiency in terms of contributing to myself or to the world
i only have 3 subjects this time around

structural analysis 1, continuation from statics, hell lot of calculation, what's gone wrong is this subject don't have lab or practical . . . its suppose to have TT
pendidikan moral, moral in malay language, again . . . but this time not as dead as the syllabus in spm . . . just that the way lecturer teaching is hard to adapt TT
professional ethics and manners, sounds professional, and yeah, a lot of professional things gonna pop out ^^

a few days in a week
gonna have just one or two hours class a day
short semester is really free
but assignment sure will stack up

some friends didn't make it through semester one
which forced them to withdraw from the course they taking
one by one . . . i was told and warned that this would happen
once again . . . the motivation is shattered

i still hope that i did not made the wrong choice
a very very long journey to be explored just to prove it
how to be the one that total different from who i am
drastic changes are good? or bad?

what are the things i resist?
what are the things that i afraid?
when are the time to let them all go?
why should i even wanna do it?

i read an article somewhere
it may look like another way to excel in something
in the conventional way we always ask ''what'' then ''how'' then ''why'' . . .
instead we should do it the other way round
first ask ''why'', why
are you doing it
then ask ''how'', how you are going to do to support the ''why''
finally ask ''what'', what are the things that made you success

back to my questions, inverted of course
why should i do it?
how i'm gonna do it?
what are the things that need to be changed?

Thursday, October 14, 2010

passed !!!

year 1 semester 1
mathematics for engineering 1 - c
statics - b+
fluid mechanics - b-
introduction to building services - b+
survey 1 - b+
sun zi's AOW & business strategies - passed
gpa - two point nine zero three six
lucky me . . . for the maths . . .
lucky me . . . i passed all . . .
lucky me . . . smiling . . .
XD

Monday, October 4, 2010

crazy weekend

right after my exam i had a few days rest, i was in wangsa maju when exam done, went back to klang to rest awhile, 3 days after that went to wangsa maju again . . . then went for a walk in pasar seni in the rain, been in police station, walked around and had lunch at mcd . . . then took the sardine-packed-ktm to serdang from kuala lumpur station . . . ended up in sungai long for 3 days 2 nights . . . to celebrate my first and ex-roomate's burfday . . . the first night dinner was a super-full one, nice curry chicken and black-bean soup, been to his new house and played cards till almost midnight . . . then had a cheese cake . . . second day, branch(breakfast and lunch) was taken in mcd again, a better one in fact . . . then watched a very clean version 'the karate kid', had karaoke in the evening . . . dinner in susan's bistro, i had a lamb shank plus steamed milk, very nice too . . . went back and continue the karaoke, played awhile with a very quiet dog, chat long till midnight, played the new starcraft 2 as well . . . the third day's branch we had a take-away-fried-noodles, while waiting we shopped around a few shops in mahkota cheras . . . oh ya . . . we were playing lots of and lots of piano during those 3 days . . . back to wangsa maju around 5pm. . . a really crazy weekend XD . . . and spent too much TT, but really enjoyed . . .


the cheese cake


'god-like' jiun lim and his 20th-burfday's cake


the steamed milk


the lamb shank with mashed potato and garlic toast

Monday, September 27, 2010

semester 1 done

finally it end
final exam of semester 1
end with a heavy rain
making me half-wet and surround by 25 degree celsius air

there were 5 out of 6 subjects have final exam
right now 2 out of that 5 subjects i have not much confident
maths and fluid mechanic
the worse one would be maths

hoping very hard that i don't repeat any of it
this is just sem 1, there are eleven to go
every sem if something went wrong
this whole course will be devastated . . . sigh

university life ain't easy
lost the motivation to continue and that's it
either i complete the 4 years
or say bye bye to my dream . . .

now semester 1 is done
my break last not more than 20 days
yet i have many plans to do
gonna be vey tired rushing here and there XD

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

2010 中秋

好好的八月十五 可惜我还在考试
不过还好 八月十六没考 一直到下个拜一
所以今天可以休息
今天和前两天的考试 实在是拿了我好多条命
其实大多数不会难 一有难的却很难
唉 数学试卷做着做着 突然脑海闪了一句civil 工程的梦好难实现啊
考了四科 就有两科可能过不了关
才第一学期而已 还有十一学期
开始有一点后悔 但是不念这科 我没其他选择了
不是不能选 是对其他没太多兴趣

看到小朋友玩蜡烛 点灯笼
唤起童年回忆 好简单的过日子 不用想太多
以前到处找东西来烧 不烧不算过中秋
有多少蜡烛就点多少 没了火才甘愿回家
还有邻居有时煮一些食物 大家坐在马路上 边吃边谈
超开心 超温馨
第十九次中秋 也很简单 做在个地方 说一些废话
看见别人庆祝也不错
回来了 一样的像平常对着电脑 娱乐自己
真无聊

距离熟悉的感觉越来越远了
怀念 . . . 好怀念
外面下着绵绵细雨
听着很有feel的歌
中秋节 就这样的过了 . . .
:)

Friday, September 17, 2010

procrastination

right now, i'm having my first final exam in degree, year 1 semester 1, one subject has done, left 4 to go . . . and it's so freaking hard to continue the momentum of reading, i have studied quite a lot for the first subject, cause it’s the hardest, but now, the second one although not the second hardest, still its full of theory and need maximum memorization and plus a little calculation . . . and what the hell i'm doing everyday? watch series, gaming ==" of course everyday i read little, even that little thing took me so long to memorize, i bet on that day of exam, my mind just blank . . . holy shit . . . i left 3 days, and after that, 3 days of continuously exam, a combo of 3 subjects, i'm preparing for one, one that not even completed yet . . . ahhhhhh


i hope someone can just slap me, or at least take my laptop away awhile . . . but, i need the notes and past year inside it . . . so when i tend to read using laptop, naturally i will . . . sigh


as we grow older, studying tend to gets procrastinate . . .

it doesn't apply to everyone, at least for me . . .


let's see what happens to me 11 days from now . . .

Sunday, September 12, 2010

merdeka @ MOS

finally and surprisingly
i've went for clubbing before my age breach 20s
with a bunch of experienced guys
and yes we went without a girl (a little disappointed lolx)

the name is euphoria ministry of sound (MOS)
near sunway piramid
the place is like a round-shape building
integrated into the side of sunway hotel

from outside it looks like a 2 storey building
infact it has mezzanine floors
the upper floor is the dance floor
and the ground floor is a more relaxing place like a bar

the sound effect at the upper floor definitely superb
absolutely quality sound and absolutely insulated from outside
there's bars at both ground and first floor
the interior feels like total above class

that night was 30th august
merdeka event with free flow
rm100 per entry for guyz and rm80 for galz
start on 93opm end on 3am the next morning

funny thing is we're the first to arrive
bought the tickets and entered right on when they opened
actually it was too early
turns up totally bored during the first hour

since its free flow
the rule is to hold on your cup to refill
if you lost it means gameover lolx
and the damn plastic cup with the name chivas worth rm100

there were five types of drink
chivas, vodka, havana, calrsberg, the last one i forgot
i only drank those four listed
around 6 cups before i threw up

i was chatting until around 1130pm
only that time the crowd became normal
after the mildly countdown by the DJ
the music switched to more 'hitz' from R & B at the beginning

that's the time when people starts heading to dance floor and dance
put your hands up in the air
drink like it's end of the world
dance anyhow you want

frankly speaking from our experienced guys that this night was not a nice night
infact it's below standard
main reason is the crowd mostly are international students or people
local (chinese girls obviously) very limited

but we enjoyed ourselves a lot still
drink drank dance
i was half-concious
yet i remembered how things happened

danced like a lost minded fellow
walked like on moon gravity
talked like a fool
slept like never sleep before after reaching home

heavy alcohols just like taking a person to some level
where you can indeed expresses everything that you like
you talk, you dance, you shout, you act like a freak
simply lost our sense of logic

reached friend's house around 4 something
slept till 1030am and again from 1130am till 2pm
only i then brushed my teeth and bathed
that's the time i fully recovered from half-concious

i think this was an abnormal way to celebrate merdeka
although it seems not much related
and so when's the next night??
probably during x'mas :)

Friday, August 27, 2010

咖啡人生

冷冷的环境 热热的咖啡
一杯难满足 心痒痒
多几杯深怕会上瘾 戒不了
久久一次闻一闻 才珍惜

咖啡喝多了 自然会分辨哪个好哪个不
再多么好的咖啡 也不能天天喝
偶尔来一杯淡淡或无味的
才能维持对好喝的期待

越容易得到的 越不会期待 也不会珍惜
讽刺的是
越得不到的 越会心灰意冷 干脆忘掉
以免心碎

一个人能有多坚强 要凭多少时间来断定呢?
一天?一年?十年?半世纪?
还是他的一生?
我唯一相信是 人总有会失败的时候
会跌会痛会哭 人生才算完整
回忆起来
脆弱的日子 换来更踏实的未来

咖啡 甜中带苦 苦中带香
不想只有苦而没甜
人生 有悲有喜 都带有意义
不想只有悲而没喜

我喜欢较苦的咖啡
苦多于甜
难道人生也必须是这样吗?
若不接受 唯有反抗。。。

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

wondering . . .

since start of university life
i've been wondering a lot
what it is going to be in there
when i'm in
what it is going to be right now
days and weeks passed by
some answers i managed to answer myself
but then new things starts making me wondering
do i have done enough or should i make more effort
i have thoughts of doing it but lack of something to start off
then again
when will i found the thing to start myself up
something been seriously lacking
i'm no different than others
but yet i want to be different from others
i've been failing in some way
will i continue to fail that way
will the thing that fail me change itself
shall i take the initiative to do something about it
clocks ticking
i kept getting old
and here i am still wondering
one last wonder
will i breakthrough
if i did, lots of thing must change
if things change
what's next
.
.
.
.
.
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week 12 already and i'm finally have a break
all tests completed and left some minor assignments
will finish off very soon . . .
and final on 14th sep . . .