semester 1 done

finally it end

final exam of semester 1

end with a heavy rain

making me half-wet and surround by 25 degree celsius air

there were 5 out of 6 subjects have final exam

right now 2 out of that 5 subjects i have not much confident

maths and fluid mechanic

the worse one would be maths

hoping very hard that i don't repeat any of it

this is just sem 1, there are eleven to go

every sem if something went wrong

this whole course will be devastated . . . sigh

university life ain't easy

lost the motivation to continue and that's it

either i complete the 4 years

or say bye bye to my dream . . .

now semester 1 is done

my break last not more than 20 days

yet i have many plans to do

gonna be vey tired rushing here and there XD

2010 中秋

好好的八月十五 可惜我还在考试

不过还好 八月十六没考 一直到下个拜一

所以今天可以休息

今天和前两天的考试 实在是拿了我好多条命

其实大多数不会难 一有难的却很难

唉 数学试卷做着做着 突然脑海闪了一句civil 工程的梦好难实现啊

考了四科 就有两科可能过不了关

才第一学期而已 还有十一学期

开始有一点后悔 但是不念这科 我没其他选择了

不是不能选 是对其他没太多兴趣

看到小朋友玩蜡烛 点灯笼

唤起童年回忆 好简单的过日子 不用想太多

以前到处找东西来烧 不烧不算过中秋

有多少蜡烛就点多少 没了火才甘愿回家

还有邻居有时煮一些食物 大家坐在马路上 边吃边谈

超开心 超温馨

第十九次中秋 也很简单 做在个地方 说一些废话

看见别人庆祝也不错

回来了 一样的像平常对着电脑 娱乐自己

真无聊

距离熟悉的感觉越来越远了

怀念 . . . 好怀念

外面下着绵绵细雨

听着很有feel的歌

中秋节 就这样的过了 . . .

:)

procrastination

right now, i'm having my first final exam in degree, year 1 semester 1, one subject has done, left 4 to go . . . and it's so freaking hard to continue the momentum of reading, i have studied quite a lot for the first subject, cause it’s the hardest, but now, the second one although not the second hardest, still its full of theory and need maximum memorization and plus a little calculation . . . and what the hell i'm doing everyday? watch series, gaming ==" of course everyday i read little, even that little thing took me so long to memorize, i bet on that day of exam, my mind just blank . . . holy shit . . . i left 3 days, and after that, 3 days of continuously exam, a combo of 3 subjects, i'm preparing for one, one that not even completed yet . . . ahhhhhh

i hope someone can just slap me, or at least take my laptop away awhile . . . but, i need the notes and past year inside it . . . so when i tend to read using laptop, naturally i will . . . sigh

as we grow older, studying tend to gets procrastinate . . .

it doesn't apply to everyone, at least for me . . .

let's see what happens to me 11 days from now . . .

merdeka @ MOS

finally and surprisingly
i've went for clubbing before my age breach 20s
with a bunch of experienced guys
and yes we went without a girl (a little disappointed lolx)

the name is euphoria ministry of sound (MOS)
near sunway piramid
the place is like a round-shape building
integrated into the side of sunway hotel

from outside it looks like a 2 storey building
infact it has mezzanine floors
the upper floor is the dance floor
and the ground floor is a more relaxing place like a bar

the sound effect at the upper floor definitely superb
absolutely quality sound and absolutely insulated from outside
there's bars at both ground and first floor
the interior feels like total above class

that night was 30th august
merdeka event with free flow
rm100 per entry for guyz and rm80 for galz
start on 93opm end on 3am the next morning

funny thing is we're the first to arrive
bought the tickets and entered right on when they opened
actually it was too early
turns up totally bored during the first hour

since its free flow
the rule is to hold on your cup to refill
if you lost it means gameover lolx
and the damn plastic cup with the name chivas worth rm100

there were five types of drink
chivas, vodka, havana, calrsberg, the last one i forgot
i only drank those four listed
around 6 cups before i threw up

i was chatting until around 1130pm
only that time the crowd became normal
after the mildly countdown by the DJ
the music switched to more 'hitz' from R & B at the beginning

that's the time when people starts heading to dance floor and dance
put your hands up in the air
drink like it's end of the world
dance anyhow you want

frankly speaking from our experienced guys that this night was not a nice night
infact it's below standard
main reason is the crowd mostly are international students or people
local (chinese girls obviously) very limited

but we enjoyed ourselves a lot still
drink drank dance
i was half-concious
yet i remembered how things happened

danced like a lost minded fellow
walked like on moon gravity
talked like a fool
slept like never sleep before after reaching home

heavy alcohols just like taking a person to some level
where you can indeed expresses everything that you like
you talk, you dance, you shout, you act like a freak
simply lost our sense of logic

reached friend's house around 4 something
slept till 1030am and again from 1130am till 2pm
only i then brushed my teeth and bathed
that's the time i fully recovered from half-concious

i think this was an abnormal way to celebrate merdeka
although it seems not much related
and so when's the next night??
probably during x'mas :)

咖啡人生

冷冷的环境　热热的咖啡

一杯难满足　心痒痒

多几杯深怕会上瘾　戒不了

久久一次闻一闻　才珍惜

咖啡喝多了　自然会分辨哪个好哪个不

再多么好的咖啡　也不能天天喝

偶尔来一杯淡淡或无味的

才能维持对好喝的期待

越容易得到的　越不会期待　也不会珍惜

讽刺的是

越得不到的　越会心灰意冷　干脆忘掉

以免心碎

一个人能有多坚强 要凭多少时间来断定呢？

一天？一年？十年？半世纪？

还是他的一生？

我唯一相信是　人总有会失败的时候

会跌会痛会哭　人生才算完整

回忆起来

脆弱的日子　换来更踏实的未来

咖啡　甜中带苦　苦中带香

不想只有苦而没甜

人生　有悲有喜　都带有意义

不想只有悲而没喜

我喜欢较苦的咖啡

苦多于甜

难道人生也必须是这样吗？

若不接受　唯有反抗。。。

wondering . . .

since start of university life

i've been wondering a lot

what it is going to be in there

when i'm in

what it is going to be right now

days and weeks passed by

some answers i managed to answer myself

but then new things starts making me wondering

do i have done enough or should i make more effort

i have thoughts of doing it but lack of something to start off

then again

when will i found the thing to start myself up

something been seriously lacking

i'm no different than others

but yet i want to be different from others

i've been failing in some way

will i continue to fail that way

will the thing that fail me change itself

shall i take the initiative to do something about it

clocks ticking

i kept getting old

and here i am still wondering

one last wonder

will i breakthrough

if i did, lots of thing must change

if things change

what's next

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week 12 already and i'm finally have a break

all tests completed and left some minor assignments

will finish off very soon . . .

and final on 14th sep . . .

formal presentation

since week 6, i've been busying a lot

tests, practical reports, assignments

all seems like packing together like a wave

one by one hit my brain

now is week 9

and more tests and some remaining assignments

i like busy

but don't like rushing

sound so wrong

however one important thing just finished

my very first formal presentation

in a cold lecture hall with 60+ people

we're the 8th group to present

shivering cause damn cold and nervous

it went well somehow

and as usual i speak at super fast speed

not fully knowing what i split out

haix . . .

but, we're satisfied and feel good about it

our first and we did good

wish someone recorded it

while i wont dare to watch it again

a lot of things still can be improved

level up next time XD

mid 2010

another blink of an eye

it's already july . . .

half a year passed again

this time i spent the mid 2010 in university

going classes as usual

study in study room

crack my head to solve maths questions . . .

sound so bored

but it's better than nothing to do seriously

i spent nearly 3 months rotting

currently i'm getting busier and busier

assignments all showed up

mid-term test is coming also

some of the lessons not quite fully understand

nonetheless i still feel i'm new to this life

technically i already adapt to it

still something that got me hanging

telling me that this is a very unreal life

telling me what i'm studying aren't real

maybe i haven't accept it

maybe a little sooner

i had a gathering with 2 groups of people

the first one is my colleagues

having bbq in her place

it's nice to meet them again

i only know them around 7 weeks cause i left earlier

some still continue on

somehow they really good in that job

then i meet some new fellows which are doing the same job

what i feel is perhaps they have a clearer way of what are they doing

a solid feel that makes them have faith to keep on doing it

all have different backgrounds with different concerns

yet everyone continues on with life

time is never a problem

age is never a problem

what matters is that people never stop from learning things

everything we do, working or studying

we learn . . .

the second one is college-mates gatherings

i miss them so much

it's been 6 months that i've haven't met with some of them

we had chats, movies and a dinner

such short meetings

but gives me a total boost in mood

lights and colour up my day somehow

we didnt know each other for too long, not 5 not 10 years

merely 2 years

a simple happiness

at some point in my life

i met some people

they might not be important

but they can bring you a taste of long lost friends

same feel goes to secondary schoolmates

just think about them

it'll make you smile atleast 3 seconds ^^

this is a bad post

f*uck everything i feel f*uck about it

i don't know why i so f*uckingly wanna say about it

it's just so f*uck

dont expect the world so f*ucking good

actually it's just so f*ucking s*hit . . .

and i sometimes really really

so f*uckingly hate it

WHAT THE F*UCK

week 1 and week 2

finally and officially i start my university life

on 31st may 2010 9am

first class . . . sun zhi's art of war and business management

sounds cool the subject

we are the first batch to take this

dont know whether it is useful or not

but our teacher said, a lot and a lot of generals and CEOs used this book

which is 'sun zhi's art of war' to achieve success

then comes the fluid mechanic

this will be the hardest subject of this semester

after a few lessons and even reading the text book

it's still hard to understand

that's why teacher said this subject will be an open-book-test

even with the book it's never eazy ==''

mathematics for engineering

first chapter about matrix

not the usual matrix that i learned in a-level and form 5

instead a higher class matrix

and a lot of new terms like gaussian, transpose, eigenvalue, cramer's

then comes the statics

more to a physic-related subjects like the fluid mechanics as well

formula and calculations

about things that statics which is sationary or zero acceleration

the 4 subjects above all taught by lady lecturers

which quite contrast with the utar setapak campus

90% of students are guys in this campus

2 subjects below are taught by guy lecturers

survey

a subject need more in practical lessons

which is measurement and grouping datas

and the use of equipments

the interesting part should be using the equipments

introduction to bulding services

another new subject of the civil engineering course

the lecturer is a part-timer so all lectures conduct in saturday only

this subject mainly in words and very minor in calculations

about what aspects need to be consider during construction of a building

for me, a nice subject of course especially the last chapter which is about green building index

now the world go going green and this is the new trend in most engineering

after all the subjects intro

here comes the complaint part

and a lot a lot of failures during week 1

example will be

classes cancel without notice

change of venue without notice

confusion in time table

even the second version has came out, it's still confusing because lecturers still following the first version

lab register are not told properly

things do not go well i.e. low efficiency

wait here wait there

queue here queue there

failure of web portal i.e. error error error

or website down

internet access fully restrict to outside world

wi-fi more or less the same

orientation week should have inform more important things like what should be done on first and second week, rather than focusing on talks

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and many more

unbelivable =="

anyway

i miss ktar

i miss the far more better efficiency

i miss the green and the views

once a while passby it feels good ^^