inspiring peace

forward

2012-01-11T17:11:00.000+08:00

exactly 365 days before this post
the day i fallen
today an 180 degree turn
i pull myself back
and moving forward again
a long long period back there
a steep steep way ahead . . .

introduction to japanese passed
structural analysis 1 a-

well, since only one subject counted ~
gpa 3.67

:)

80th

2011-12-28T22:48:00.003+08:00

2 months apart . . .
this is my 80th post
yes recently kinda lazy to update my blog
don't have the right mood to do it too
currently in holiday
after finishing short semester
the only thing stress about this semester would be repeating a failed subject
but now
i'm confidently cool about it and i aim to score high
the moment when finishing the last question of the final exam with 5 minutes spare
the calmness when doing the whole paper
the relief of knowing i did all of the questions
just so damn satisfied
although right after i knew some mistakes i made
but still i aim high
damn i will pass this paper as high as possible

another good news would be my course structure has changed
i suppose to do industrial training next may
instead i'll be doing next october
short semester of year 3 and 4 have filled in with subjects
the downside of this is we don't have any 3 months holiday
thanks to this i think i'm able to graduate the same period with my original coursemate
which i already having 3 subjects behind them . . .

i never regret taking civil engineering
i just never thought that it could be this hard
not anyone can cope
while myself just barely hanging right there

uphill

2011-10-14T10:16:00.003+08:00

another semester finished

another exam done

and result out as usual

this time i check as fast as i could

it release on 2.05pm

i saw it on 2.50pm

usually i'd wait till late evening or at night only i check

probably i have high confidence in this sem's result

numerical methods and statistics a-

thermodynamics b-

cad & c++ c

fluid mechanics 2 b-

hydrology b

basics econs, acc and management b

i was aiming for an A for the numerical

a second A

but never mind, this is good enough too

gpa 2.9127

my highest so far

追

2011-08-21T18:14:00.005+08:00

你走到哪

我会跟到哪

你一直走

我会一直追

永远贴着你

如果有一天你转头望不到我时

不是我不再追你了

只是我累了

那时希望你放慢一些

好让我能追到你

离你越远

心会越疼

只有在零距离时才安心

世界再多大也好

有你在就好

如果有一天你不再需要我追时

我会假装听不见

请原谅我不听话继续追着你

短时间内会很不习惯

请体谅我一会儿

当我确定你能独立后

我会试着放手

好让你能走得更好

与你的邂逅

永远不忘

中国 | 2011

2011-07-16T21:07:00.012+08:00

好久没写部落格了，这是关于我九年后再次去到中国的旅行。我去的是中国的中部，主要的两个城市是郑州(河南省首府)和西安(陕西省首府)，其他城市有开封、新密、登封、洛阳和三门峡。重要的景点是开封府、少林寺、龙门石窟和兵马俑。

星期三晚出发到机场，延迟了大约半小时，启程到上海浦东国际机场，三小时内转机到郑州新郑国际机场。很可惜，上海的天空烟雾蛮重，所以没机会看清楚市容。原本呢出发的日期是定于周四，因为航班位子有限只好分两天出发。整团人四十六位，第一趟先走的有九个包括家人和我。所以在郑州，我们就个多住一晚。

第一个重量级的旅游景点-开封府，坐落在开封千年历史的府。保护与修复历史古迹，还是中国比大马好，开封府的大门、里面的建筑、一座四层楼-清心楼，都修复得很好。开封府的前面有一个包公湖，风景不错。

然后，在登封看一个所谓轰动全球的表演-禅宗少林音乐大典，舞台设计很复杂，背景竟是两座山，真的山，舞台就在中间。表演的功夫，当然也是真的，加上LED和闪光灯，形成高科技功夫表演了。同样的在登封参观了少林寺，也是个千年历史的景点。本来是个传授少林功夫的清静地，也变成了商业化，开放给旅客。心想能参观古迹是很难得的，但是要为了旅客需要开放，破坏一定难免的。讽刺的，商业化创造了商机，对当地居民却是好事。

在洛阳的龙门镇，有个叫龙门石窟的景点，有整万个在石岩雕刻的佛像和佛尊。曾被破坏被盗，也修复的很多，佛像最小的可以和拇指一样，最大的呢有差不多十七米高。龙门石窟遍布两座对岸的山岩，中间隔着一条河-伊河。

到达西安后，直接就参观兵马俑了。总共有三个被挖掘的地方，全都盖起屋顶，里头安了空调，保护至上。听了导游的历史解说，兵马俑对我而言，只是因为权威而建起的, 劳命伤财只为了自己。千年前的怨恨，却为现代西安带来很多工作机会，人们也从中受益。兵马俑挖掘已三十年，还没完成呢，还有很多埋藏着的都不会去碰了，政府决定全力保护。

其他的景点包括丽景门、西安长乐门、回民街、河南博物馆、郑州黄河风景、和二七广场。丽景门和回民街都是古街，很特别的店铺，也买很多小吃。在回民街多数做生意的是回教徒，有几条小巷很狭窄，古老，但美。第一次坐气垫船就是在郑州黄河啦，船长带我们到黄河河床然后下船，黄河近年水位超低，河床就是一片黄泥，泥是粉粉地，踏在河床的感觉，很怪。

食物方面呢，因为这里是中部，离开海岸很远，少吃到海鲜，鱼类都是黄河鱼。差不多每一餐都会有一个馒头东坡肉，常见的菜是菇类，菜肴不会太辣，不过不会很开胃。直到有一餐是澳门式的，吃起来超好吃，澳门菜很像大马华人的菜式。有一件有趣的事是中国的啤酒，不同的城市都有自己的品牌，而且每个省皆有产酒。酒精介于3.3-3.7%而已，当然是大马的好喝多了。

一路上都是坐旅游巴士，印象深刻的莫过于中国的发展吧，城市的环绕公路、高速公路和高速铁路。从谷歌地图看，郑州和西安都有三环公路，还又连霍高速公路，全长4280公里，我们的旅程只用了大约四百多公里。另外，幸运的让我看到了高铁列车，属于郑西高铁。虽然没有机会搭高铁，去西安时有看到高铁的超夸张铁路工程。远远看超壮观的，近看也没话说了。没亲眼见过高铁的我，终于看到了，希望大马也会有，十年可以吗？九年前在重庆和昆明的路上自行车多不胜数，而现在看到郑州和西安呢，自行车到处都是，不过电力发动的，只需充电，不需加油，没有引擎，没有废气。

回程时呢，就只有等一个字。中午十二点到达机场，享用午餐后就在等候厅等三点的飞机到上海浦东。当天早上有听说到上海刮三或四级的风，怎知真的发生航班大延迟，一等就等了六个半小时，天亮等到天黑，上海天气转晴时，终于离开了西安陕西国际机场。回到浦东机场时，天色当然也暗了，又错过了上海的风景，扫兴啊。。。没多久，半夜就转机起飞回吉隆坡。早上六点到达。

A

2011-05-29T15:28:00.005+08:00

yes, finally i obtained my first A . . . 4.00

only one subject . . . maths 2 . . . succeed
but all of us knew that the final paper, the midterm are all below standard difficulties
not too happy about it

dynamics passed with c

soil mechanics with a c+ . . . zzz

my english for engineering b

and pengajian malaysia passed . . .

deep breath . . .

haaaaaaaaaaaa

gpa 2.83

cgpa two point five seven

tomorrow will be the starting of year 2

long way ahead . . .

year one ended

2011-05-15T12:46:00.008+08:00

and so . . . i 've been a full year in utar . . .i finished the first year and three more to go . . . year one third semester can be considered as the busiest among the whole year, from week 3 onwards till week 13 non-stop, rest a week and then face exam for 3 weeks, finally done but semester break only last for 2 weeks . . . i take 5 subjects with all have final, luckily all have room to breathe, meaning those exam days do not cramp together, still there's one subject that i have a feeling it will be gone, all others shouldn't have problems . . . infact i have high hopes that maths can get an A, my first one though if i really got one . . . the one that's gonna fail will be dynamics . . . its so hard and many are complaining, even the pro's doubt whether they can get A . . . so the weaklings like me obviously doomed . . . i register for muet for this semester as well, the exam is quite ok except for the speaking . . . i made a mistake, a very basic mistake, do not read the questions and instructions completely . . . oops . . . i wanna get band 4 . . . and put some faith in band 5 also . . . although very much impossible . . .

all exams finished, i should be enjoying from this moment on, but i don't feel relax at all, may be because i stressed for too long, or i might be not celebrating enough . . . or this is the side effect of growing old? grew old but still studying . . . study yet by hanging on a thread, anytime could fail, that's how i felt . . . all the time thinking to switch course . . . i don't regret in taking civil engineering, i learned a lot, but holding it till the end is a different story. so, marketing? quantity survey? or automotive? zzz

if you ever wanna venture into engineering world . . . think twice seriously . . . which university is not a main problem

i watch a movie, have a good lunch, a little shopping and that's all the entertainment, if i play dota, will i be able to release my stress? anyhow, i dont like dota . . . cod or l4d2 is much better . . . so what kind of entertainment will release stress? now i hope to go a trip, be it one day or a few days . . . wanna have a different experience . . . there's one study tour by utar, 3.4k exclude meal to tunghai university, taiwan for 14 days . . . expensive opportunity . . . ptptn can sponsor me somehow hehe . . . should i go?? hmmm

Final Fantasy XIII Soundtrack | Serah's Theme

2011-03-30T01:01:00.003+08:00

make my wish come true
let darkness fade to light
show me there's still hope
show me it's not over
battles we can win
our struggle lies within
will we live to greet the dawn
love will not leave you
hate will not heal you
promise me one day that peace shall reign

where's . . .

2011-03-26T21:22:00.007+08:00

actually i don't really have mood for blogging

since already more than one month
i shall crap out something . . .
something that never right

i'm currently doing week 10
since week 2 every week has been a busy one
one after another although i am taking 5 subjects
and of course i'm not done busying

recently i seem to have found out
that i really aging
my face in the mirror
my body much more fragile than before
easily twisted =="
white hair grew more than before

i'm not fully 21
and not expecting people to take me as 20 also
means i'm really getting old
my parents also
every of my friend as well

life irreversible

memory irreplaceable

people not too friendly to you anymore
the world doesn't care how you feel also
earthquakes everywhere
wars everywhere
hatred all around
where's love?
where's mine?
where's yours?

independent is the sole answer to all this
which indirectly goes for selfishness
everyone protecting themselves will hurt others
my brain has been thinking, twisting, moving, storming, non-stop . . .
to find answers
for everything
silent is the side effect
why is it so hard to do it even though a simple stuff
some things always blocked the path
but there's no turning back
time never stops for us as usual
i'm seriously missing a thing

my world is getting smaller and smaller

非诚勿扰

2011-02-20T13:51:00.007+08:00

你见，或者不见我
我就在那里
不悲不喜

你念，或者不念我
情就在那里
不来不去

你爱，或者不爱我
爱就在那里
不增不减

你跟，或者不跟我
我的手就在你手里
不舍不弃

来我的怀里或者
让我住进你的心里
默然相爱
寂静欢喜

《班扎古鲁白玛的沉默》
作者 | 扎西拉姆多多

这首诗我在看非诚勿扰2时，有个小女生，送别父亲时而念的
非诚勿扰和非诚勿扰2这两部都是很有意义的电影
出自于导演冯小刚著的小说

3rd semester

2011-02-01T22:38:00.006+08:00

nothing changed

at least not my appeal's result

so i have to accept it that it was a fail

bye bye structural analysis

bye bye too, structural analysis 2

have to wait till short semester to retake

so this semester left only 5 subjects

pengajian malaysia, another boring subject like moral in malay language

english for engineering, not a typical english class, many said it's not easy to pass or score

mathematics 2, seems a little interesting than mathematics 1, still it's a tough one

dynamics, similar to physics in a-level but those formulae seems have ''add-on''s

soil mechanics, after a few lectures and still in the midst of introduction, not sure how it will be, i believe it's more to calculation as well . . .

since i took english this semester, i registered to take MUET too, hope it can help me a little, didn't write a proper essay for a long time . . . oh no . . .

by the way, i can't afford a fail anymore, it's truly a painful one, especially need to retake the whole subject again . . .

university . . . civil engineering . . . damn hard to continue

things always be different

it changes unexpectedly

if i can live for 100 years old

what have i done in one fifth of it?

can i be fully independent?

perhaps not . . .

what else i achieved that's truly memorable?
what i'm capable of?
need another 20 years to prove?
sad . . .

fallen

2011-01-11T16:38:00.004+08:00

what a sad news . . .

i've fallen

now i truly felt about when getting a fail in an important exam

just merely half a year and this is my first fall

structural analysis down

the other two passed . . .

first thought of that moment when i got it . . .

i'm wondering system wrong?? server problem??

but then repeatedly read again . . . it's still remain ''F''

then, i wonder where it went wrong . . .

i was positive that i can passed, at least merely
and so i will appeal
despite an expensive price of rm100
i must appeal . . .

wait for another 2 weeks
hope something will change
it must change
damn it == xx

MMX | MMXI

2010-12-31T17:40:00.005+08:00

MMX is a roman figure

2010 of course . . .

this will be my last post for this year

as usual MMX past so fast

since january i started working as telemarketer

then i got my a-level result

almost march i resigned

from march to may i had a super long holiday

made many trips with family and friends as well

enroll in utar in june

had sem 1 till september

then holiday again before starting sem 2 in october

exam done in december

and i'm having holiday again till mid-january next year . . .

that's how my MMX going on

all about trips and studies

on MMXI or 2011

first thing i'll be waiting for is result of course

nervous nervous nervous

have confident though XD

i have a new mission in MMXI

will do everything to make it happen . . .

happy new year everyone

have a great one !!!

牵

2010-12-17T12:38:00.003+08:00

我有能力牵人家的手吗

能牵得久吗

能握得稳吗

别人可以很放心的相信我

但我还未完全信任别人

始终是有保留

没试过

不知道会有什么后果

很多疑问都没去解答

看一步走一步行吗

需要有经验吗

一次过能一起走到老吗

若不成功

还可以是熟人吗

情人

好虚幻

好荒谬

将来我预测不到

只希望能和对的人过

the short semester

2010-12-15T23:12:00.006+08:00

if you think that my blog is dying . . .

nope, it would not die . . .

not until something big happened

maybe like end of the world in 2012

finally i have mood and plenty of free time to write some memorable things happened weeks ago. now i am having semester break, class starts on 17th january. this short semester really feels short, a few weeks only and then final exam is done, just like that.

assignments start on week 3, earliest need to be done is on week 5, and then few others in week 6 & 7. one of the most interesting thing would be the video presentation. it took us around 2-3 days to shoot and 34 hours of editing, became a 19.5 minutes video clip, behind the scenes are very very entertaining and funny. i gain a lot of skills in editing the video where most of the time it crashed and crashed, most of the time i have to re-do a lot, adding music, subtitles and credits as well. although it did not went like how we imagine it, it still a represent a great work from us.

in professional ethics and manners class, i was chosen to be one of the group leader, leader is never my stuff but i like to try it. it turned out a little weird to me cause i really does not know what should i do or what i should not do. as class goes on, my group mates kept on changing till week 3 only became stable and we can start our assignment and presentation. assignment was quite fine for the first one, then comes the second one with the title ''psychologist ethics'', the moment i got this, i have a deep deep feel that we gonna screw this badly, because this is also our presentation topic. on week 7 we present it and it does not goes into favour of lecturer, we managed to change something in the report and i hope it can saves some marks. about the presentation, i learnt some new tricks by own observations, i always see the presenter like moving their legs one step to left right front or back. what i did is to freeze my leg and i did it, good improvement by the way as i don't speak at super-fast-speed.

in week 5, 3 of my friends and i participate something call ''night race varsity''. it's basically a race by guessing clue to a location or a person or game, when you got the next clue then find it and so on until you have 17 pieces. behind the pieces are actually clue to a mini puzzle, anyone managed to guess it will win it. we didn't think too much at first and then we went fully into the game and had as many fun as it can be. we run, guess, observe, play, solve mind-tricking-games, and guess what, we end up 3rd place from 17 groups of people. we're just 30 seconds behind the 2nd place, that's our regret. the prize is a hamper with snacks and biscuits. after the race, all the winners include us distribute the prize to all others. that was a good move considering that we gonna have some hard time in deciding what to be taken by who . . . overall it's tiring but was nice as it held in the night in utar.

oh ya, talk about the trips in this short semester. i went to genting highlands with house mates. went up there a lot of time but this time is quite a different one. just pure relax, no playing any games, in fact 2 days 1 night can't really do much. we have a big room, superior deluxe of first world, that alone cost us rm60 a night. just like always, cool air cools the mind . . .

skyline above highlands hotel

another mini-trip was i-city of shah alam. we went using a near 20 years old proton saga. the engines feel good and quite stable. using that kind of old car driving 40km to and fro was a concerned, it was crazy enough to think and did it. i city has a lot of addition since last january. people still flood around it, makes me think of people always attracted to lights . . .

i-city

the ''superb'' car

one of my dream was achieve as well, going to the klims 2010, kl international motor show, rm20 per person, yet many people went for it, it was quite grant, bigger than i imagine, walk for 4 hours inside ptwc. good to see proton and perodua have their concepts car. still, i like honda and toyota, and the rising favourite would be hyundai . . .

my favourite car right now

talk about exam week, suppose the first day of my exam turn out to be the last day of it, yeah great. the pendidikan moral falls in study week that's why. the moral exam was good, it's mcq and kinda hard . . . the last day exam was structural analysis, it kill me good that day. we suppose to do 4 questions in 2 hours, but after 1.5 hours, i managed to did 2 questions. at the end, i done maybe a little more than 60% . . . and it's doesn't look good. hope i pass all of course . . .

next semester gonna be busy like hell i guess. 6 subjects, 4 full of calculation, with one that need full memorization and the other one is english language. i might take muet, too . . . and i have a new mission . . . to participate more, clubs or activities, anything . . . leave no regret . . .

last thing, new additions to my gadgets list.

sonic gear earpump2

red colour, rm59

i bought this around august's pc fair, forgot to mention it that time . . . this is quite a great piece of sound. a little expensive i know, i really like it . . .

latest thing would be western digital elements external hard disk drive

2.5" with 500gb, usb 2.0, rm 169

in reality it has 465gb, divide it up, it cost me 36.3sen per gb of space, worth it? i think yes if you compare to a dvd or usb flash drive.

wow, never know i can wrote 1000 words plus in a single blog

i did now

great lolx . . .

i'm gonna have a good rest

christmas coming soon . . . XD

20

2010-11-10T21:51:00.003+08:00

bye 19 . . .

hi 20 . . .

hate to be old . . .

just like to grow . . .

20 is my favourite 2-digit number

this could be a favourite age

have to thanks yee wei

you just so freaking dare . . .

20 . . . twenty . . . 二十 . . .

for the full 19 years that has passed . . .

*speechless*

. . .

the second semester

2010-10-21T15:33:00.004+08:00

back to university feels good though

better than rotting at home doing almost nothing

zero efficiency in terms of contributing to myself or to the world

i only have 3 subjects this time around

structural analysis 1, continuation from statics, hell lot of calculation, what's gone wrong is this subject don't have lab or practical . . . its suppose to have TT

pendidikan moral, moral in malay language, again . . . but this time not as dead as the syllabus in spm . . . just that the way lecturer teaching is hard to adapt TT

professional ethics and manners, sounds professional, and yeah, a lot of professional things gonna pop out ^^

a few days in a week

gonna have just one or two hours class a day

short semester is really free

but assignment sure will stack up

some friends didn't make it through semester one

which forced them to withdraw from the course they taking

one by one . . . i was told and warned that this would happen

once again . . . the motivation is shattered

i still hope that i did not made the wrong choice

a very very long journey to be explored just to prove it
how to be the one that total different from who i am
drastic changes are good? or bad?

what are the things i resist?
what are the things that i afraid?
when are the time to let them all go?
why should i even wanna do it?

i read an article somewhere
it may look like another way to excel in something
in the conventional way we always ask ''what'' then ''how'' then ''why'' . . .
instead we should do it the other way round
first ask ''why'', why are you doing it
then ask ''how'', how you are going to do to support the ''why''
finally ask ''what'', what are the things that made you success

back to my questions, inverted of course
why should i do it?
how i'm gonna do it?
what are the things that need to be changed?

passed !!!

2010-10-14T18:27:00.007+08:00

year 1 semester 1

mathematics for engineering 1 - c

statics - b+

fluid mechanics - b-

introduction to building services - b+

survey 1 - b+

sun zi's AOW & business strategies - passed

gpa - two point nine zero three six

lucky me . . . for the maths . . .

lucky me . . . i passed all . . .

lucky me . . . smiling . . .

crazy weekend

2010-10-04T23:59:00.009+08:00

right after my exam i had a few days rest, i was in wangsa maju when exam done, went back to klang to rest awhile, 3 days after that went to wangsa maju again . . . then went for a walk in pasar seni in the rain, been in police station, walked around and had lunch at mcd . . . then took the sardine-packed-ktm to serdang from kuala lumpur station . . . ended up in sungai long for 3 days 2 nights . . . to celebrate my first and ex-roomate's burfday . . . the first night dinner was a super-full one, nice curry chicken and black-bean soup, been to his new house and played cards till almost midnight . . . then had a cheese cake . . . second day, branch(breakfast and lunch) was taken in mcd again, a better one in fact . . . then watched a very clean version 'the karate kid', had karaoke in the evening . . . dinner in susan's bistro, i had a lamb shank plus steamed milk, very nice too . . . went back and continue the karaoke, played awhile with a very quiet dog, chat long till midnight, played the new starcraft 2 as well . . . the third day's branch we had a take-away-fried-noodles, while waiting we shopped around a few shops in mahkota cheras . . . oh ya . . . we were playing lots of and lots of piano during those 3 days . . . back to wangsa maju around 5pm. . . a really crazy weekend XD . . . and spent too much TT, but really enjoyed . . .

the cheese cake

'god-like' jiun lim and his 20th-burfday's cake

the steamed milk

the lamb shank with mashed potato and garlic toast

semester 1 done

2010-09-27T17:08:00.004+08:00

finally it end

final exam of semester 1

end with a heavy rain

making me half-wet and surround by 25 degree celsius air

there were 5 out of 6 subjects have final exam

right now 2 out of that 5 subjects i have not much confident

maths and fluid mechanic

the worse one would be maths

hoping very hard that i don't repeat any of it

this is just sem 1, there are eleven to go

every sem if something went wrong

this whole course will be devastated . . . sigh

university life ain't easy

lost the motivation to continue and that's it

either i complete the 4 years

or say bye bye to my dream . . .

now semester 1 is done

my break last not more than 20 days

yet i have many plans to do

gonna be vey tired rushing here and there XD

2010 中秋

2010-09-22T23:15:00.005+08:00

好好的八月十五可惜我还在考试

不过还好八月十六没考一直到下个拜一

所以今天可以休息

今天和前两天的考试实在是拿了我好多条命

其实大多数不会难一有难的却很难

唉数学试卷做着做着突然脑海闪了一句civil 工程的梦好难实现啊

考了四科就有两科可能过不了关

才第一学期而已还有十一学期

开始有一点后悔但是不念这科我没其他选择了

不是不能选是对其他没太多兴趣

看到小朋友玩蜡烛点灯笼

唤起童年回忆好简单的过日子不用想太多

以前到处找东西来烧不烧不算过中秋

有多少蜡烛就点多少没了火才甘愿回家

还有邻居有时煮一些食物大家坐在马路上边吃边谈

超开心超温馨

第十九次中秋也很简单做在个地方说一些废话

看见别人庆祝也不错

回来了一样的像平常对着电脑娱乐自己

真无聊

距离熟悉的感觉越来越远了

怀念 . . . 好怀念

外面下着绵绵细雨

听着很有feel的歌

中秋节就这样的过了 . . .

procrastination

2010-09-17T11:06:00.006+08:00

right now, i'm having my first final exam in degree, year 1 semester 1, one subject has done, left 4 to go . . . and it's so freaking hard to continue the momentum of reading, i have studied quite a lot for the first subject, cause it’s the hardest, but now, the second one although not the second hardest, still its full of theory and need maximum memorization and plus a little calculation . . . and what the hell i'm doing everyday? watch series, gaming ==" of course everyday i read little, even that little thing took me so long to memorize, i bet on that day of exam, my mind just blank . . . holy shit . . . i left 3 days, and after that, 3 days of continuously exam, a combo of 3 subjects, i'm preparing for one, one that not even completed yet . . . ahhhhhh

i hope someone can just slap me, or at least take my laptop away awhile . . . but, i need the notes and past year inside it . . . so when i tend to read using laptop, naturally i will . . . sigh

as we grow older, studying tend to gets procrastinate . . .

it doesn't apply to everyone, at least for me . . .

let's see what happens to me 11 days from now . . .

merdeka @ MOS

2010-09-12T02:22:00.012+08:00

finally and surprisingly
i've went for clubbing before my age breach 20s
with a bunch of experienced guys
and yes we went without a girl (a little disappointed lolx)

the name is euphoria ministry of sound (MOS)
near sunway piramid
the place is like a round-shape building
integrated into the side of sunway hotel

from outside it looks like a 2 storey building
infact it has mezzanine floors
the upper floor is the dance floor
and the ground floor is a more relaxing place like a bar

the sound effect at the upper floor definitely superb
absolutely quality sound and absolutely insulated from outside
there's bars at both ground and first floor
the interior feels like total above class

that night was 30th august
merdeka event with free flow
rm100 per entry for guyz and rm80 for galz
start on 93opm end on 3am the next morning

funny thing is we're the first to arrive
bought the tickets and entered right on when they opened
actually it was too early
turns up totally bored during the first hour

since its free flow
the rule is to hold on your cup to refill
if you lost it means gameover lolx
and the damn plastic cup with the name chivas worth rm100

there were five types of drink
chivas, vodka, havana, calrsberg, the last one i forgot
i only drank those four listed
around 6 cups before i threw up

i was chatting until around 1130pm
only that time the crowd became normal
after the mildly countdown by the DJ
the music switched to more 'hitz' from R & B at the beginning

that's the time when people starts heading to dance floor and dance
put your hands up in the air
drink like it's end of the world
dance anyhow you want

frankly speaking from our experienced guys that this night was not a nice night
infact it's below standard
main reason is the crowd mostly are international students or people
local (chinese girls obviously) very limited

but we enjoyed ourselves a lot still
drink drank dance
i was half-concious
yet i remembered how things happened

danced like a lost minded fellow
walked like on moon gravity
talked like a fool
slept like never sleep before after reaching home

heavy alcohols just like taking a person to some level
where you can indeed expresses everything that you like
you talk, you dance, you shout, you act like a freak
simply lost our sense of logic

reached friend's house around 4 something
slept till 1030am and again from 1130am till 2pm
only i then brushed my teeth and bathed
that's the time i fully recovered from half-concious

i think this was an abnormal way to celebrate merdeka
although it seems not much related
and so when's the next night??
probably during x'mas :)

咖啡人生

2010-08-27T16:34:00.003+08:00

冷冷的环境　热热的咖啡

一杯难满足　心痒痒

多几杯深怕会上瘾　戒不了

久久一次闻一闻　才珍惜

咖啡喝多了　自然会分辨哪个好哪个不

再多么好的咖啡　也不能天天喝

偶尔来一杯淡淡或无味的

才能维持对好喝的期待

越容易得到的　越不会期待　也不会珍惜

讽刺的是

越得不到的　越会心灰意冷　干脆忘掉

以免心碎

一个人能有多坚强要凭多少时间来断定呢？

一天？一年？十年？半世纪？

还是他的一生？

我唯一相信是　人总有会失败的时候

会跌会痛会哭　人生才算完整

回忆起来

脆弱的日子　换来更踏实的未来

咖啡　甜中带苦　苦中带香

不想只有苦而没甜

人生　有悲有喜　都带有意义

不想只有悲而没喜

我喜欢较苦的咖啡

苦多于甜

难道人生也必须是这样吗？

若不接受　唯有反抗。。。

wondering . . .

2010-08-18T23:35:00.006+08:00

since start of university life

i've been wondering a lot

what it is going to be in there

when i'm in

what it is going to be right now

days and weeks passed by

some answers i managed to answer myself

but then new things starts making me wondering

do i have done enough or should i make more effort

i have thoughts of doing it but lack of something to start off

then again

when will i found the thing to start myself up

something been seriously lacking

i'm no different than others

but yet i want to be different from others

i've been failing in some way

will i continue to fail that way

will the thing that fail me change itself

shall i take the initiative to do something about it

clocks ticking

i kept getting old

and here i am still wondering

one last wonder

will i breakthrough

if i did, lots of thing must change

if things change

what's next

week 12 already and i'm finally have a break

all tests completed and left some minor assignments

will finish off very soon . . .

and final on 14th sep . . .

formal presentation

2010-07-31T23:09:00.002+08:00

since week 6, i've been busying a lot

tests, practical reports, assignments

all seems like packing together like a wave

one by one hit my brain

now is week 9

and more tests and some remaining assignments

i like busy

but don't like rushing

sound so wrong

however one important thing just finished

my very first formal presentation

in a cold lecture hall with 60+ people

we're the 8th group to present

shivering cause damn cold and nervous

it went well somehow

and as usual i speak at super fast speed

not fully knowing what i split out

haix . . .

but, we're satisfied and feel good about it

our first and we did good

wish someone recorded it

while i wont dare to watch it again

a lot of things still can be improved

level up next time XD

mid 2010

2010-07-01T23:03:00.003+08:00

another blink of an eye

it's already july . . .

half a year passed again

this time i spent the mid 2010 in university

going classes as usual

study in study room

crack my head to solve maths questions . . .

sound so bored

but it's better than nothing to do seriously

i spent nearly 3 months rotting

currently i'm getting busier and busier

assignments all showed up

mid-term test is coming also

some of the lessons not quite fully understand

nonetheless i still feel i'm new to this life

technically i already adapt to it

still something that got me hanging

telling me that this is a very unreal life

telling me what i'm studying aren't real

maybe i haven't accept it

maybe a little sooner

i had a gathering with 2 groups of people

the first one is my colleagues

having bbq in her place

it's nice to meet them again

i only know them around 7 weeks cause i left earlier

some still continue on

somehow they really good in that job

then i meet some new fellows which are doing the same job

what i feel is perhaps they have a clearer way of what are they doing

a solid feel that makes them have faith to keep on doing it

all have different backgrounds with different concerns

yet everyone continues on with life

time is never a problem

age is never a problem

what matters is that people never stop from learning things

everything we do, working or studying

we learn . . .

the second one is college-mates gatherings

i miss them so much

it's been 6 months that i've haven't met with some of them

we had chats, movies and a dinner

such short meetings

but gives me a total boost in mood

lights and colour up my day somehow

we didnt know each other for too long, not 5 not 10 years

merely 2 years

a simple happiness

at some point in my life

i met some people

they might not be important

but they can bring you a taste of long lost friends

same feel goes to secondary schoolmates

just think about them

it'll make you smile atleast 3 seconds ^^

this is a bad post

2010-06-29T22:37:00.003+08:00

f*uck everything i feel f*uck about it

i don't know why i so f*uckingly wanna say about it

it's just so f*uck

dont expect the world so f*ucking good

actually it's just so f*ucking s*hit . . .

and i sometimes really really

so f*uckingly hate it

WHAT THE F*UCK

week 1 and week 2

2010-06-13T16:43:00.005+08:00

finally and officially i start my university life

on 31st may 2010 9am

first class . . . sun zhi's art of war and business management

sounds cool the subject

we are the first batch to take this

dont know whether it is useful or not

but our teacher said, a lot and a lot of generals and CEOs used this book

which is 'sun zhi's art of war' to achieve success

then comes the fluid mechanic

this will be the hardest subject of this semester

after a few lessons and even reading the text book

it's still hard to understand

that's why teacher said this subject will be an open-book-test

even with the book it's never eazy ==''

mathematics for engineering

first chapter about matrix

not the usual matrix that i learned in a-level and form 5

instead a higher class matrix

and a lot of new terms like gaussian, transpose, eigenvalue, cramer's

then comes the statics

more to a physic-related subjects like the fluid mechanics as well

formula and calculations

about things that statics which is sationary or zero acceleration

the 4 subjects above all taught by lady lecturers

which quite contrast with the utar setapak campus

90% of students are guys in this campus

2 subjects below are taught by guy lecturers

survey

a subject need more in practical lessons

which is measurement and grouping datas

and the use of equipments

the interesting part should be using the equipments

introduction to bulding services

another new subject of the civil engineering course

the lecturer is a part-timer so all lectures conduct in saturday only

this subject mainly in words and very minor in calculations

about what aspects need to be consider during construction of a building

for me, a nice subject of course especially the last chapter which is about green building index

now the world go going green and this is the new trend in most engineering

after all the subjects intro

here comes the complaint part

and a lot a lot of failures during week 1

example will be

classes cancel without notice

change of venue without notice

confusion in time table

even the second version has came out, it's still confusing because lecturers still following the first version

lab register are not told properly

things do not go well i.e. low efficiency

wait here wait there

queue here queue there

failure of web portal i.e. error error error

or website down

internet access fully restrict to outside world

wi-fi more or less the same

orientation week should have inform more important things like what should be done on first and second week, rather than focusing on talks

and many more

unbelivable =="

anyway

i miss ktar

i miss the far more better efficiency

i miss the green and the views

once a while passby it feels good ^^

神木与瞳 | 宽恕

2010-05-28T23:02:00.003+08:00

面对面坐着眼神不屑一顾

挤出的笑容看起来好突兀

我走错一步坠入万丈深谷

还是会想起你的荒唐糊涂

针刚刺在心上血流已如注

背叛了幸福拿爱当赌注

曾把感情放逐何时能结束

遇到你我想停止游牧让爱归真返璞

漂泊会落幕承诺说得那么铭心刻骨

你的眼泪让我无助

你懂不懂我为爱忍辱

努力学习宽恕原谅那错误

不甘我们的爱死在半途

听见你的心还在哭

遗忘不及痛蔓延速度

希望你能觉悟我真的领悟

伤口慢慢愈合再被爱包覆

还是会想起你的荒唐糊涂

针刚刺在心上血流已如注

背叛了幸福拿爱当赌注

曾把感情放逐何时能结束

遇到你我想停止游牧让爱归真返璞

漂泊会落幕承诺说得那么铭心刻骨

你的眼泪让我无助

你懂不懂我为爱忍辱

努力学习宽恕原谅那错误

不甘我们的爱死在半途

听见你的心还在哭

遗忘不及痛蔓延速度

希望你能觉悟我真的领悟

伤口慢慢愈合再被爱包覆

你的眼泪让我无助

你懂不懂我为爱忍辱

努力学习宽恕原谅那错误

不甘我们的爱死在半途

听见你的心还在哭

遗忘不及痛蔓延速度

希望你能觉悟我真的领悟

伤口慢慢愈合再被爱包覆

作词: 吴本纬

作曲: 杨阳

神木与瞳 < 宽恕>

level up

2010-05-28T21:30:00.006+08:00

this is a bad news actually

cause i had my very first minor accident

3.35pm 27th may 2010

with another sedan car

both also have fault technically

i'm (X) at a T-junction wanted to turn right

turn from a small road to a main road

the car (Y) was coming from my right side

at first the car had the left signal turned on

so i thought he gonna turn into my junction which is his left turn

as the car approaching in

it has some distance around 50 metres from my car

then i accelerate slowly to make sure the other side of the road is clear

so that i can have clean turn

so i move a little

the next second the car getting nearer

it moves at moderately low speed

the car closer and closer

another second i realize he was not going to turn

in fact he hit the brake hard and then . . .

kiss my back right door . . . =="

i should have gone faster

he shouldn't have the signal turn on

the force is hard

and my back left door did crumpled

one foot in diameter approximately

and some leftover scratch and paint

the other car

the front bumper crumpled a bit only

scratch a little and the number plate spoil a little

the hardest part hit the weakest part . . . sigh

anyway by law

i may be the disadvantage side

that's how i level up

level up on the road . . .

my very own clean record

legally drive on road

coincidently after 2 years 2 months 2 days since i got my license

then . . . TT

god bless that everyone was okay

god bless that both car still can move on

god bless that i have a new experience

god bless that there's nothing to worry anymore

what a day haix . . . good la XD

utar

2010-05-27T21:10:00.002+08:00

at last . . . my class going to commence soon

just finish this week's orientation

it's a 4-day event

but i only attend two and a half of it lolx

the first day is collecting the goodies such as booklet and t-shirt

then there are some briefing talks and welcoming speeches

from student representatives and department of student affairs

not bad, around 300-400 freshmen attend

then i meet my old friend, ex-college-mate

we're even in the same course

second day resumes with some other talks

the important one is the loan talk

as i'm going to take a loan from ptptn

apart from the ptptn talk the others' talk only half of the freshmen from the first day attend

which prove many not really interested in others' talk

the third day

i only attend the first two talk which is briefing by the head of department and career talk

as told by the assistant professor whom gave the briefing

there's should be twelve freshmen

sadly, there's only seven of us includes my ex-college-mate and myself =="

on the other hand

i saw a notice showing that there should be seventeen of new students in civil engineering

updated on may 21st

so, there should be one class only . . .

hope a few are ladies XD

i skip the fourth day which has the telematch event

theme as icebreaking . . .

another interesting thing is

as utar is just beside ktar

i can have an alternative way of taking bus to and fro

either ktar's bus or utar's bus

the difference is . . .

the former need walk extra 10 minutes

the later need pay extra 10 sen

(what the . . .)

so now

i'm waiting for the first class on monday may 31st . . .

i've been informed i have class from monday to saturday

sad~~

a different escape

2010-05-11T21:56:00.003+08:00

may 4th to may 6th i've went for a different holiday . . .

for me a normal holiday just resting and free from busy and stress

but this one is rather an enjoying-type holiday

location is pangkor island

the 3 days was off-peak period from tuesday to thursday

it's like the resort only 10% or less occupied

7 of us take bus from klang sentral to reach lumut

and a 25 minutes ferry trip to the island

10 years ago i step on this island before

didn't remember much of it though

we stay in coral bay resort 2km from the main jetty

the cool thing is the resort is 100m from the beach

evening, night, morning we walk to the beach

hope for a nice sunset, nice star-sky-view, nice cold breeze

but we're not in good luck i guess

sunset could have been better without cloud

stars couldn't been seen clearly, either it's thick cloud or the light is too bright

we barely see a few stars shine the second day

and about sea breeze, a very week one actually

the pasir bogak beach not that clean also, still the sea water is better than some in east coast

still have good things though

the food we having in the resort is really not bad

so much food and the lunch and dinner set we have to waste some

breakfast buffet is nice, just that milk is missing which i really hope they have it

most of our activities is by the beach

walking by the seaside, picking up and throwing stones

shell hunting and some rock-climbing to get higher view

the best activity will be the snorkeling and sight-seeing

all on a speed boat where the we run into strong winds

we snorkel one hour and then swim by a so-called private beach for half-and-hour

the snorkeling is fun and really a lot of fishes out there, colourful one is nice of course

and also the place where we keep on taste the sea water

that 'private' beach can only reach by boat cause it's a small and pretty island apart from the main island

so not much people there, in fact only our group by there that time

the beach is very clean compare to the main island's

and sea water is just so crystal-clear

first time i seen it really surprise me

because in my mind, there's really less beach that's clean unless it is really private

second day evening, we walked 2km to town and weather just so hot

simply walk around and managed to buy some local products

and on the way back, found a very very rare ice kacang stall

due to off-peak period, not much food and dessert can be found

even the people that make ice kacang also out of ice for the moment when 7 of us ordered

at the beach, saw some fellows putting kites, really professional

looking at them while they racing their kites to reach as high as possible

quite a scene by the beach, feel so relax

that night, and lucky enough, some fellow catching fish by the seaside

and the process is 'live' in front of us

they catch dozens of squid and some medium-sized fishes

a lot has 'jump' away when they pulling back the net

for a city-kidz . . . it's nice experience

another thing that surprise us is we saw some friends from our secondary school

ex-schoolmates, either is malaysia too small, or could be we have the same thoughts

i bet even if we chose some other place, we could still see some familiar faces

it's good somehow

the morning on the day we back

we spent our last activity on the beach as well

this time sand-art

lot of stuffs put on to make some good photo for cameras

other than footprints, we even use specs to decorate the sand

one that only us can make it because 7 of us wear specs

the only thing that this trip make me really relax is sitting by the beach

looking at the sun, the sand, the wave

and think of nothing else

no worries, no problems, just pure relax

''wish for another trip XD''

green

2010-04-29T23:57:00.002+08:00

my blog undergoes a 180' change

a whole new look

a new theme

and a fresher look

7 hours of construction

getting a new template

editing from every angle

optimize to a better blog

a greener step

a greener world

dell inspiron 1464

2010-04-26T00:12:00.003+08:00

first laptop of mine

awesome dell 1464

new inspiron 14"

new core i5

on 30th of march

after months of researches

i decided to buy dell via online

also my first product via online

not the best specs though

but i've chosen the best i could at a range

i suppose can get cheaper by rm80 still

too bad the dell online voucher already being before it expired

2399

core i5-430M

3gb ram ddr3

320gb hdd

w7 home premium

intel hd graphic cards

and a top loading bag

arrive on 16th of april

this black machine everything looking fine

since i already used a week

speaker not up to nice quality but quite loud at max

the arm rest area quite glossy so as the lid cover

i try to game it with cs 2.0 and c&c generals

it heats up a bit near the left fan port with the internal-cooler running

gaming may up to average 70%

the cooler runs if the cpu usage is around 30% and above

standby memory usage 0.9-1.1gb

while surfing internet 1.3-1.5gb

when using google earth 4 only it shoots up to 2gb

luckily the max memory is 3gb

intel hd graphic is obviously not a gamer's choice

i didnt opt for ati or nvidia

cause i know laptop seriously cant game too much

i'm not a full time gamer anyway lolx

i buy white avf mouse in pc fair

rm19 optical mouse

the touch pad only for emergency use only

dell's touch pad isn't that smooth compare to others'

the next thing i'm gonna buy would be earphone

presumably sonic gear's

not planning to buy cooler pad

normal usage like surfing online and watching videos won't heat up too much

battery life can up to 3 hours until 5% left to hibernate

with average surfing and lightly used

recharge from 5% to full requires about 2 hours 15 minutes

80% can be reached around 90 minutes

for the moment this laptop is really cool

hope it continue for the next 3 years as well

officially utarian

2010-04-24T16:36:00.004+08:00

first week of april

i received the offered letter from utar

civil engineering as predicted

and a 5k student bill =="

the expiry date is april 23th

any day later than that will have to pay more

unless if you choose over other uni's offered

which i don't even apply at any other uni TT

i'm just such a 'tar'-fans

tarc then taru

fees submitted on 20th

and right now down to one month left

one month from now

the words study, exam, assignment, presentation

gonna stuck with me until 2013

i'm looking forward to start class anyway

24th orientation

31st class commence

near 3 months of rust

one day will have to end soon

last thirty years ago

entering uni is such a proud and left only to be imagine

now? majority capable of doing it already . . .

no more that surprise, no more that proud

what's left just . . .

too much of jobless graduates

there's a chance i might be one of them

let the 'faith' and 'will' tell . . .

tarcian to utarian

2010-03-29T23:07:00.003+08:00

i chose utar

only apply in utar

probably is the most optimum choice

cheapest one that i can get

the form has been submitted

waiting for offered letter

gonna start on 24th may

if everything goes as plan

first choice

civil engineering

4 years

graduate at 24 . . . how old =="

刘纾妤 | 失眠

2010-03-09T10:25:00.004+08:00

这个失眠夜想不起你是谁

品尝过爱情的香甜我舍不得喝水

人总是疯癫不惜牺牲一切

却只为了换一次拥抱爱的机会

被你牵着的手是不可能的画面

拥有你的时间已经不可能倒回

爱情像纠结的毛线

你说爱我太过浪费

太过狼狈太过愚昧

都是我一厢情愿

尝试过爱恋尝试过缠绵最后还是失眠

我脆弱无助的黑夜都是你抽的烟

我尝试过亏欠尝试过敷衍最后还是失眠

忍住怀念却清醒过一整夜

我尝试过爱恋尝试过缠绵最后还是失眠

我眼泪填满的黑夜是戒不掉的烟

我尝试过亏欠尝试或敷衍最后还是失眠

忍住后悔却忍不住又想念

忍住怀念却清醒过一整夜

词：吴易纬

曲：陈威全

编曲：李乃刚

刘纾妤 <失眠>

纳闷

2010-03-02T21:19:00.006+08:00

没工开的日子

真无聊

也无趣

不过的却是无忧无虑

才过两天而已

已经十足像个废物

吃喝玩睡

毫无目标

天气也不正常

从30到32

从32到34

一场超过十分钟的雨都没有

其实

我本因该很享受

三个月后即将要开学了

展开四年最后的学业生涯

这个虎年

一开始就让我看透很多事情

才刚过十五

却好像好久好久太多太多了

回想以前

中五和a-level

超好的

二话不说就懂大家心想什么

现在

猜来猜去都不知想干嘛

到最后

自己一个撞墙

受伤后

还要自己救自己

也许

还要些时间来弄清楚

无论如何

终会有好过的日子的

只要在倔强一些看开一点

就不会太失望

最近死命听疗伤系歌

越听越动听

是时候再唱K了

再创更高的境界

fail in sales-line

2010-02-28T22:02:00.002+08:00

absolutely fail

i resign, again . . .

only just 7 weeks

proven one thing . . . sales is not my line

sad case actually

i managed to sell only 3 cases

which should be at least 10+

there a few reasons i guess

1st

i seriously new in this

i have zero background

i know nothing about insurance

but i learn the way through

may be i out of time

>>>now i know a little, at least good when i need to buy my own insurance

2nd

my words ain't confident enough to make customers believe in the product

my talking speed just too fast

or i just not good in hypnosis

not really good in counter as well

>>>i seriously hard to slow down my speed of talking, but most of the time they can listen, cause if too slow i felt so bored

3rd

chinese are just smart

they have all insurances

they are busy

they are agents

they trust more in agents

>>>i always will tell the same thing when i receive call from those in call centre

4th

i have the minimum faith in trusting insurance

i felt more on cheating than helping

i don't really trust those insurance

all is just business and profits

and i'm from science-line

i don't give a damn on what the heck is that insurance

>>>insurance is important . . . but there are some people out there deeply disappointed with insurance . . . guess this is the ugly truth

5th

i can work till april

but i wont be allow to stay too long

so put a stop by myself is good

no point forcing myself in here

they need sale, not your hard work

as long you got sale, they won't give a damn of what person you are

>>>i'm an OT king, yet cant save from anything

what unbelievable is

there are 7 people including me left the job

some have better offered

some may be can't stand the environment

thanks all the people over there

thanks all those that support and teach me

so sorry that i disappoint you guys

and thanks for giving me a try

some fellow are just crap

some good

some crazy =="

for some thanks for sharing their experience

left 3 months

rest till the fullest

and start a new journey again

i look back and smile what i've done

this is my second job

telemarketing executive

will i return??

mostly NOT

tiger valentine day

2010-02-16T22:57:00.003+08:00

cny and valentine in a day

which falls on same day 14th of february

after 2010 . . . then it's 2048 . . .

38 years

this double reddish day kinda rare in one's lifetime

so should saviour and blog about this

first sad case is i don't have girlfriend yet

and so i'll major in chinese new year

as usual the day before we travel back to taiping

the unusual thing is we take the west coastal road

stretching from klang to kuala selangor to seri manjung to taiping

4 hours journey . . . around 275km

this is to avoid the massive jam in north-south highway

as radio keep on updating the traffic news every hour

in fact we save around rm30+ of toll fee

but the total distance is around 20-30km extra

and of course the view of the new journey is fresh and nice

along the coastal road passing by small towns, rivers, sea sides and plantations

even take a break in giant of sri manjung

a newly developed town

that last night of cow year

have reunion dinner

then a little firecracker burst the night with light

on 12am . . . lying on bed and sms forward cny's wish

in the morning of first day of tiger valentine day

just like any other normal day . . .

but consider quite a quiet first day

that's what i feel if comparing to last few years . . .

and usual routine . . . take a round at taiping's lake

the 130+ years old lake . . . every year goes on and still look great

beauty of nature + man made lake

awesome and natural

one thing mess up the day . . . the weather

just so effing hot

whole day sauna non-stop

sweat every seconds . . .

that night we have the second dinner

luckily it is air-conditioned restaurant

but it didn't cool us enough . . .

squeezing my stomach again and again with a lot of food

so there goes on the 14th feb of 2010

last thing did was watching comedy movie

non-alcohol that day anyway

alcohol starts the next day with wine then carlsberg gold

didn't spend time on doing what valentine's day should do

always busy all the time . . .

single is good? or couple better?

love always there . . . where's the entrance??

love some tempting moment

love that sweet moment

laugh in heart and

a bright smile on the face . . .

moment | memorable

last piece of a-level

2010-01-30T18:47:00.003+08:00

why last piece?

cause it is the last thing about a-level . . .

what it is about?

final result of course . . .

when is it?

january 25th 8am . . . the whole world stunt

where is it?

online check the status . . .

so. . . how is it??

what i can say is . . . above average . . .

exactly how??

well . . . there are 3 great seas lay upon biology, chemistry and mathematics

and there's a sole bee on physics . . .

satisfied?

yes of course . . . great result from me . . . and a great engineering future lays upfront

what's the next new puzzle?

civil engineering in utar . . .

regret taking a-level?

NEVER EVER . . . probably is the better choice among others . . .

any last words?

thanks to all the teachers and all my fellow students

you guys are my inspire

you guys built the pathway for me

sincerely appreciates

may all my friends continue to pursue their targets

may all the teachers continue to nurture the new ones'

and for myself

i am here

for the future of human race

inspire | peace

telemarketing executive

2010-01-16T21:26:00.003+08:00

that is what i'am doing now

lolx, i'm still a beginner but already calling myself

telemarketing EXECUTIVE

nice name though haha XD

on january 5th, i went for interview

my housemate introduce me to the company

same company as him

he also just start the same job a while ago . . .

interviewing very interesting . . .

luckily i made it through as well

which is good to tell that

cause i know nothing about this line at all

january 11th

the day i start to work again

last job was january 16th back in 2008

i was working as a waiter that time

the first week is just training

first day just the normal introduction

then we start the what is this what is that lesson

from 930 to 530 . . .

interesting about this is everyday we have some mini games

a game to make us relax while some others train the reflex act

very nice, a whole new job environment

a total of 14 new members including myself

then the second day and third day

we all being chosen to a certain group

then start to learn how to talk while introducing to customer

very nervous especially the role-play

anyway we have a very good trainer

among the best one as well

some others also gives us comments

and some seniors really did help us all

fourth and fifth day we started to get used to our what we need to say

then we make a lot mistakes then improved again

hope by next week i will be ok for second role play

hope to have really good sales from the start

a whole new lappy, here i come for you !!!~

a new mission

2010-01-07T22:26:00.009+08:00

yeap, a new mission

recently a friend's recommendation

has provided me a faster working opportunity

directly go for interview in a telecommunication company

for a new job in telemarketing field

before this i apply job through jobstreets

post resume and waiting for reply . . .

but now, i done my interview and everything down to a call

call for training . . .

after that, i will start to have income again . . .

which is a great news of course

my mind wants to buy many stuffs

laptop, sport shoe, some shirts

and a new activity

bag pack tour

some of my friends and myself already start to plan it

hope it will work when the time comes

of course everything needs money

that's why this job will be vital

i'll work with those things in my mind

inspire and motivate

in addition of course . . . gain experience

why the hell would a science student wants to work in a sales environment??

the answer is . . . everything has a beginning

and this is my beginning

2009 ==> 2010

2010-01-01T23:06:00.005+08:00

damn . . . 2009 just rest in peace already

2010 is here

why i always feel the time pass so fast . . .

but every second pass at the same rate

theoretically it's at normal speed

now it's the year of 10% of 21st century

a-level course done 1 month plus ago . . .

form 5 done full 2 years ago . . .

and now i'm going to work the second time

hope to can get some money to buy laptop

a very good one of course

hope to involve in new environment also

new job, new colleague, new world

think back

i have involved in so many different environments

met many friends . . .

ran into so much of troubles

yet still have a lot of fun

everything are just memories now

sometimes listen to some songs really can recall

recall all those experiences . . .

there are pain

there are gain

and there are tears

i wish everything can replay again

every friends i have met

i want to meet them again . . .

but i know the chances are at minimal

some just stay so far . . .

probably one day i'll find them

even those stay near

also have hard time to meet up

when i grow older

the more the things i involved

the more people i knew

in the end

the more separations i had to get through

it is sad . . .

sometimes the good one only last a short time

and more gatherings of course

seeing friends grew older

seeing them changed a lot . . .

they said i've changed also

although i didn't think i changed too much

just that myself have different view of thinking

some very common things

suddenly i felt like it is very special . . .

like awhile ago, i saw a rainbow while driving

i stop the car and take picture

the last time i saw was quite a long time ago

i stare awhile at the rainbow

my mind just kinda empty

probably long time i didn't saw one

or because the world is getting sick

and nice scenes keep getting lesser

so the rainbow meant very special to me

along 2009

most of the time i am in college . . .

class, homework, exam . . .

and tons of celebrations

dozens of movie watched

lots of money spent =="

college classmates really awesome somehow

crazy stuffs always surround us

especially after a big exam . . .

now has become history

i'll never forget as long i'm conscious though

it's 2010

make a wish

new year, new world

love | soul

avatar

2009-12-29T23:22:00.000+08:00

i already watched avatar twice

and twice i truly enjoyed . . .

this is a movie that really worth the money

really have to admire the writer and director james cameron

he took more than 10 years to complete and beautify

utmost to the best quality

in terms of visual and sound as well

and a long movie which last 2 hours and 40 minutes

it happens in 2154, where trees already wipe-out on earth

in search of new mineral, they explore the pandora

a new planet that has biodiversity itself

and a similar species like human called na'vi

scientists want sample of living things

military wants mineral

businesses need profit

all this causes havoc in the new world

in the end, there's still some want it to be end

we may not know will this happen in reality

but if it is, this movie will reflect the future of human race

non-stop violating, non-stop dominating

come to think of it

it will guarantee our future

while destroying others' future

is this worth? physically yes

mentally? never . . .

we will always sad

we will regret

yet we continue . . .

not in the movie

not in the future

right now, right here

right in this world

it's happening . . .

the movie more or less is reflecting our ownself

even making this movie may have effect on the world

atleast at the same time . . . it's giving us a message

do you get the message??

december '09 | 35th

2009-12-03T23:19:00.008+08:00

my blog has been almost a year

and i've just change the head title

from 'make the world peace'

to 'inspiring peace'

this is the 35th post

not much but it's fine for me

i change the title

the meaning behind it doesn't change much

it is still about peace

now it just more to inspiration

the peace i meant

refers to a lot of stuffs

from environment to human activity

to relationships between people

to politics

even to social problems

the probability of all these to be at ideal peace

only just 1.0 x 10^(-99)

the figure is already at quite minimum

well, it equals to impossible of course

anyway that's not the main objective

the main objective is to raise the rate near to ideal peace

which is reduce violence

violence in everything

remember violence is not an option

if cant be avoided

atleast reduce it . . .

greatly of course

not by a bit

(it's time to talk about earth again)

lolx . . .

our world will be destroy someday by our hand

could be just the time of a few hundreds years

i'm afraid there's nothing to stop it

what can we do only just to reduce the destruction rate

if we cant even do this

the destruction rate can really double up

faster and worse

if we can buy some time

so that human can have an idea

to move human into a whole new world

it can be artificially made, or may be a new planet

human is the only species on earth

that capable of saving it's own population

and other species

when on the verge of extinction

given that time is sufficient

as i know selection pressure takes time

if too harsh

nothing will be left

not a single cell on earth will able to survive

i may sound exaggerate

but it doesn't mean it won't happen

so people

save earth

save natural resources

save something good . . .

this is it

2009-11-26T22:02:00.003+08:00

take a deep breath . . .

smthhhhhhhhhhh~

hhaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

effing nice feel

because i'm done in college life

i've officially finish the cambridge a-level course

and it takes 3 round of celebrations while ending it

one word still ~ cool

being in exam for a month is really not a good feeling

that long life is just so bored

although having class sucks

without that, even sucks . . .

that's what i'm doing now

facebooking, watching anime and series

day pass just like that . . .

same as a aim-less person

anyway . . . i will rest a month plus

then by end of december

i will hunt for jobs . . .

hope will get a job in january

to end the aim-less life

how am i feeling now??

a little lonely i guess

cause the primary social place has ended

seems like i look at computer and tv more than facing humans

it means i talk less

so so so sad

already start to miss college friends

they are so so so lively

every part of them

every single voice of theirs

every little thing they do

every happiness they create

everything of them

i shall remember

words just aren't enough to describe it

probably they are the best classmates i've ever had

thanks to you all SN9E

sigh~~

this is it

another journey ends

a new one shall arise . . .

love | soul

19th

2009-11-10T01:28:00.003+08:00

happy birthday to myself . . . lolx

and yes, officially 19th

i end up reading chemistry application

at my last moment of 18th . . .

not really have mood for my 19th birthday

as i have big exam by tomorrow

guess i'm lucky cause not on the same day

but i manage to take some time to write about this

17th november will be the last day of a2 exam

on 12pm, once again take a deep breath

and i'm done

behold . . .

pre-a2

2009-10-18T00:20:00.003+08:00

this is it . . .
final mission of pre-u studies
starting on 21st october
end on 17th november

everyone knows every exam is hard
after going through lots of exams
eventually we will get numb
that's what i'm feelling right now

so tired of studying
studying could be derive from student dying
when a student studying, like me
it seems that i'm dying . . .
lolx . . .

on 1200 hour, 17112009
i will be free
atleast for a few months
to all friends involve in a2 as well . . .
all the damn best to you all

nature acts again

2009-10-02T22:18:00.002+08:00

in just a week . . .
nature acts violent again . . .
typhoons, earthquakes, tsunamis . . .

this time, comes in pair
typhoon - ketsana and parma
earthquake - padang and samoa
tsunami - from padang and samoa as well

thousands of lives will lost
thousands of them went missing
millions will be homeless

and the aftermath . . .
human race against time to save anyone
every second lives lost
every second tears rolled down cheeks
every moment there is just sorrow . . .

sorry for those who lost their love's one

no one can stop
no one can predict
what's left just piles and piles of remains
and corpses . . .

sad sad situation . . .
soon . . . no cursing, no offence
malaysia will under attack again . . .
it just a matter of time
when it comes
brace yourself and survive through it
the world indeed is cruel . . .
you cried, too
the first moment you came to this wold

relax!?

2009-09-28T12:54:00.003+08:00

what i've done right after trial exam??
3 weeks of non-stop playing and enjoying everywhere
and not even touching any books or homework . . .
and skip class all the while . . .zz

i skip more than half of the classes of a week
basically teachers done teaching already
only discuss about past year papers
for a "lazer"(a lazy people) like me
of course has not do any of that
i only attend practicals and some of the tutorials
where i spent my time??
CC . . . cinema . . . a trip and my computer as well

i play command and conquer red alert 3 and general
not up to addict yet . . . but soon it will right after exam . . .
play in home, in hostel, in CC also . . .
after playing each time
felt like nothing happen though
lolx . . . only enjoy while playing
felt like has not done anything yet
probably the games already can't fulfill my desire??
or is it the game lame??
may be i'm too old for those
anyway, it is better than facebook games(i have to mention that . . . lolx)

for that 3 weeks. . . i watch 4 movies too
final destination 4, where got ghost, orphan and g-force
3 horrors and 1 animation
best one is orphan, and i watch alone
sit at the last row of last cinema room in klcc, no. 12 . . .seat no. K8
really suspense and just so nice watching it
good work from the people making it

the other like FD4 really not that nice, and the ending just like that zz
where got ghost . . . yup, its funny
and some part of the movie did make me scare out of it
the last one, g-force . . . i just too old for that lolx
it is high-tech, and some part funny also . . .
but more suitable for children i guess
cause most of the people watching just at teen ages only

i went to bukit gambang resort city in hari raya
it is in gambang, pahang, around 20-30 km from west of kuantan
a very new tourist attraction, more to local attraction
opened about a few months ago . . .
got 6 blocks of apartments, only 4 are completed
not much activities . . . most of the time just free leisure
a 3 minutes walk to the other side is the bukit gambang water-park
quite a small one if compare to sunway lagoon
most of the park is for family
even the loopy ride using raft not that exiciting
there is one ride not yet open . . . sad
staying there quite relax, the air in the morning really fresh
and a nice swimming pool . . .

and another usual gathering as well
with my form 5 classmates . . .
karaoke and a movie
happy to see them . . .
last few day went to a friend house in sungai long, kajang
went for the moon-cake festival night held by the committees of the housing area
chit-chatting all the way
really have fun and enjoy . . . ^^

totally forgetting that i have a big exam in just 4 weeks . . .
trial exam's result . . .sigh, chem n phy passed, but not maths and bio, TT
hmm . . . time to keep head down and finish the last and big mission of this year . . .
last quarter of 2009 is coming
so damn fast . . .

090909

2009-09-09T09:34:00.007+08:00

100 years once - 090909
only exist once in a lifetime for me
unless i can live for more than 120+ years old
but i will be very old by then
so it's better cherish it now . . .
everyday is the same
not just 090909
080808 and101010 . . .
all just once in a lifetime
no turning back
as long as i am conscious and normal
i will do something special . . .
for me 090909 it's now or never
and i just finished exam by yesterday
so here i am blogging about this now
and what i'm going to do is relax myself
after going through the trial exam
3 weeks of study
pain but gain
think deeply
seems that pain is more than gain
i pay this much pain
but i don't get back as much gain
anyway some people do get more than they pay
we born to study for 20 years
then need to work for 40 years
so the gain is after 60 years??
because that's the time of retire
but that doesn't mean we are fully stay out of pain
if we have family
we have to worry about our children and our grandchildren
if we don't
we have to worry how are we going to pass our time
if we don't have to worry those
one thing left
health will deteriorates
suffer a long way before our last breath
so??
assumption is pain more than gain
think from another angle
it's the human race that gain
we born to overwrite of what ancestors have done wrong
we born to continue and improve of what ancestors have done right
in the end
we are sacrificing for our next generation
is that really noble??
someone born to destroy
someone born to save them for being destroyed
for what human race gains
the nature and earth pay the price
and the rate is increasing everyday
how many more 090909s can we have??
maybe we celebrate on mars in future??
i don't think it will goes well
by then we will have a new and longer calender
687 days a year
for everyday we have
make it fully meaningful
and don't forget to save earth

*crazy thoughts (never meant to offence anyone)*

2009-8-22

2009-08-23T00:04:00.003+08:00

a normal day
but me
ain't that normal
just a bit moody

what??
moody
why??
can't define . . .
it's just too much
when??
long time ago
could be started a few months ago
where??
everywhere
how??
i can't stop it
as i'm aging

my 18's gonna end
this is not good
ishhh...

d-day

2009-08-15T17:23:00.005+08:00

august 10th, monday . . .
important day
the day that AS result came out
it is released at 7am in malaysia
have to check via online
i am not the first one to check . . .
i wait. . . . and wait . . . till 9am
brace myself and click the website
sign in . . .

surprise yes . . .
A for maths
A for physics
B for biology
C for chemistry
E for general paper (something like english paper)

i am happy for the moment because i got 2As
but the C make me worry a little
after a few days
i make up my mind
i will not retake it . . .

so . . .
A2 is my only last shot . . .
let's see if i can keep up
or else
i could stay for another semester
which means
study with junior . . .
somehow it feel sucks . . .

whatever it is
i feel happy at the moment . . .
COOL MAN ~~

空虚

2009-08-01T16:17:00.003+08:00

来到a-level读书已经一年多了
开始时
刚刚离开服务营的我
已是属于‘插班生’了
因为迟了半个月才进班
还好一切都可追上

一年的时间
不算短也不算长
在拉曼学院上课
一年而已
相比在五年的中学
变的多的很

我的班sn9e
无可否认的
热情得不得了
也算是在这一批a-level中
非常吵的一班

四百天过了
热情不变
变的是朋友与朋友之间的信任
唉。。。

当初第一学期考试后
一大班人浩浩荡荡一起看电影
最高记录是二十多人一起去
闹出了许多笑话
非常难忘
那时是第一学期

来到了第二学期
事情开始恶化了
不知为何大家的感情
走了样
表面上很多话题谈
私底下却是很不满

也许大家都认为自己没做错
我也不例外
知道自己有错
残的是不懂为何错
每个人都从不同的角度看待事故
自然地就会有不同的感想
相信大家都有同感

有时候呢
做了一些事
对别人而言是没什么
无论如何
很难令其他人满意
在另个角落的他(他们)
可能已被伤害
结果出事了

平均十九岁
算是进入成熟阶段
当然早熟的
说话行动气质
明显的高档次一些

当刚成熟的遇到已成熟的
一不小心
裂痕就产生
原因有很多
只有自己晓得

年龄虽相差不大
思想却相差不小
想修补但有心无力
就算补了心中还有刺
总不能回到刚认识时的滋味

幸好知己依然有
若不是
会很难受
很难继续过日子
往往事实是残酷的

就这样带着遗憾
来到第三学期。。。

一大班人
只剩下两三只猫消磨时光
心情越堕落

大考完了
应聚在一起庆祝
我们的班刚好相反
曲终人散
大多数人都回了
我呢总得找些娱乐
不然人活着是干嘛地

最近心情真的很空虚
上课本来很开心
可是总觉得有事放不下
当然包括其他的
不知为何要烦这些琐碎的事
一定要找人谈谈

十八岁
好残
发誓要走出这空虚

*五六百字，好久没写了
越写越悲。。。搞什么啦。。。*

1st anniversary

2009-07-11T21:15:00.004+08:00

my handphone . . . sony erricson k660i has been one year since i used it . . . i bought the phone at the same day last year, and still look nice . . . anyway, it is my second handphone, the first one is nokia 8310 which i'd used for 3.5 years . . . both phones also a great phone in it's class.